Hi I'm new to this forum

Hi Sally pleased to met you , I would agree with your comment that as a doctor you should no better but I won't as I don't think getting diabetes really enters our heads , I could say I should have knowen better too considering both my brother and mother have diabetes and having had gestional diabetes myself then I was a high risk from the word go but that is life ... I too have never had a proper relationship with food, always chose to eat what I wanted , when I wanted and being slim up until my late 20's meant I could do just that , it was getting Osteoarthritis that slowed down my activity levels and the weight increased I,m now at the stage where I struggle to do most things and having M.E certainly doesn't help , I am just trying. To cut out the junk I used to eat , I have thought about going on a liquid diet but that wouldn't suit me , I like food lol plus being diabetic means I have to eat in order for the tablets to work , I don't bother telling my family my struggles , I have a teenage son who's overweight too but he's a finicky eater ... I don't even no what a normal BM is ... Mae

I can say it's certainly not been easy , my main problem is changing the way I think regarding food , I've been to dietitians and health trainers but in reality I no what I,m meant to be eating and no one can tell me what to eat but me , I,m a adult I,m not stupid and unless I can get it inside my head then I,m not going to lose weight , I feel older than my years constantly tired and in pain , I,m unable to work so have to much time on my hands , I have my partner and son but am isolated , struggling to make friends and my family are 100's miles away , I do suffer from depression too , I,m a right case hehe but I get by , I rescued an 4 year old Staffordshire Bull Terrier last year, so walking him as helped me get out ... I was a slim, child, teenager and young adult , I remember feeling 'fat' when I was in a size 12 clothing ohh I wish to be that size again I certainly wouldn't moan now .. My BM is around 39.6 , its come down it was 42.9 I,m hoping it'll come down more , i,m realistic I no I,m never gonna be the weight I was as a young adult , ... I,m sure your not an old dog but I guess like me your kinda stuck in a rut? Knowing what you have to do but lacking the motivation the thought of forever being on a diet horrifies me but I no it's something I face and I'm. Not looking forward to it, I,m already struggling with what to eat , lettuce, beetroot, cucumber, carrot, spring onion gets boring ...

Sorry didn't see your reply until now , I joined mfp to see what I was eating and it's a shock to see how much 'junk' I actually consume ... I hate being hungry all the time too , starting to hate the sight of salad stuff , but have found that when I eat different food my sugar levels rise there seems to be no end .