feeling really down -- but i don't have much reason to?

megansprague
megansprague Posts: 57
edited September 29 in Motivation and Support
Hi guys.

I've been feeling really down the past few days, mostly about my fitness/weight loss goals. I was doing really great my first week, maybe even two, and I lost almost 4 pounds. I also don't have much to lose (I'm 139 right now AGAIN and I want to get down to 125, and I'm 5'7", 19 y.o.).

I was going to the gym consistently those first two weeks but then last week I kind of fell off the bandwagon because of some personal stuff and over the weekend I had to go to Pennsylvania for a family thing (not in a good way) and ate and ate and ate! I didn't go to the gym on Saturday because I was working and got up early to go on Sunday morning before we left for PA. Then I ate sooooo much on Sunday and Monday, too, and the gym was closed when I got home on Monday and didn't go for a walk like I'd planned to. Tuesday I skipped the gym and went for an hour long walk -- not too great. Yesterday I finally went back and it was alright. But today I just feel so unmotivated! I've gained back 2.5 pounds!! In two weeks? And I just want junk junk junk!

Maybe I was more motivated before because I'd bought new gym clothes? But now I really can't afford to buy new ones because I'm saving up for flights for my gap year program in the fall. I can't complain I haven't been losing considering the crap I've been eating and I haven't been at the gym as much, but I still feel really down about everything and it's exhausting being so positive. I feel so much more motivated and positive at night sitting in my bed, like, "Yeah! I'm going to get up, go to the gym and shower before my doctor's appointment tomorrow! It'll be great!". No....... Not really. I probably need new sneakers, too, but again, MONEY. And I'd rather not skimp on them, you know? Perhaps I could use a HRM? But I'm not sure if it's worth it. I'm going to open up my diary, too. It's not great at all. And I'm on 1200 calories a day. I'm afraid to increase it but I always go over :(

Short version: All I want is junk. I'm not at all motivated to go to the gym. I just want to complain and cry. I'd rather hide inside my house than go run errands or work out or anything. And I really shouldn't complain because I am so much smaller and fit than so many people in the world. I shouldn't even want to lose weight. I need new sneakers but again I'd rather hide inside my house.

Sorry, this is ridiculous!

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  • megansprague
    megansprague Posts: 57
    I'm forcing myself to go to the gym. Hmph.
  • saffir27
    saffir27 Posts: 68 Member
    I understand what you are going through. I'm really good for a couple weeks and then I feel like I just blow it. I go for a couple weeks but then I get back on track. The way I do it is I re-commit to tracking just for a couple days.
    The other thing is I sign up for some event that gives me something positive to work toward, like a 5k. It gives me two things a reason to get to the gym and then when I complete it I get a self-esteem boost that helps me stick with the program.

    Overall what I've learned is as long as you keep logging in your on the right track, even if your not eating the best.
  • fireyes
    fireyes Posts: 31 Member
    I have been there, many times. Based on my experience, I would say you are suffering from junk food withdrawal. Just eat really clean over the next few days, get some exercise in, and you should be good. Also, fruit has lots of natural sugar, which usually helps me transition back to healthy eating (without missing the sweets too much).

    I don't think buying stuff will make you feel better, especially if you're tight on money. This is the hardest time to get back on the ball, but it's also the most crucial.

    TL;DR My suggestion: Give it three days of 100% clean eating with plenty of fruits and veggies (and of course exercise) and then see how you feel. Every single time I have felt better by then.
  • Goal_Seeker_1988
    Goal_Seeker_1988 Posts: 1,619 Member
    You weigh 139 and you are 5'7" trying to weigh 125? Sounds like your body is at a comfortable weight. Ex. I've been 142 to 147 for the past 2.5 years. I'd love to weigh 135 however, my body hasn't budged below 142. I am also 5'7". Maybe try maintaining for awhile and not worry so much about the numbers. Focus on droppin inches. Your body may gain weight which is probably just goin to be water weight and if you do weight training and give it time you should be able to drop a few inches and maybe even a size or two without even dropping a lb. Hope I could be of some help.

    btw: sometimes given in a lil to the cravings is better than not.

    try eating more proteins to help stop the bad cravings. It's normally a great problem solver.
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