Rant: Bathing Suit Body

So I am pretty frustrated. 3 years ago, I hit my goal of losing 100 lbs by hitting 160 lbs. I'm currently maintaining it and have been for those last 3 years. I weigh around 165 usually and cycle + or - 3 lbs. I feel like my body is happy here. This is what I can maintain without killing myself.

I jumped back on MFP after the holidays because.. of course.. holidays.. and I got above a weight that I'm comfortable at.. and I'm getting married in May. I've done so well lately that I'm back at 160 (a weight I dont generally get to) and I'm poised to lose a few more but I dont feel like I should go near or below 150. I'd probably look like skeletor. I'm 5'8 and fairly muscular. For reference and im probably up almost 10 lbs in this pic:

Because I'm so goal oriented, I was thinking about keeping it up until my honeymoon.. at which point I would like to slip into a bikini.. something I've never done because I've been heavy my entire life. I have tons of extra skin and stretch marks everywhere.. you know, things that make most people self conscious.

I run, I am a triathlete, I work out 5 times a week.. so why should I not be comfortable with myself? I can do this. I work at it. I'm going to do that bikini thing.

Here is my biggest frustration.. I try to get some motivation this morning. I google things like "major weight-loss transformation bikini" or "100 lb weight loss bathing suit" and all I see are people who look like fitness models.. or who have lost no where near the weight I had to lose.. with flat stomachs.. etc.

I just wanted to see some bodies like mine.. with the saggy belly skin.. with the stretch marks.. with the sad looking belly button that always frowns. The arm flaps and the skin rolls.

It really makes me feel bad about myself.. honestly. I did this HUGE thing and lost all this weight and have been able to maintain it for years.. and I just feel bad because I can't find people like me in swimwear.

Is that what society is promoting? Those super flat stomachs and abs and it's only impressive if you look like a swim suit model after you're done with weight loss? (not that it isn't impressive) Even those women and men in People magazine.. wow!

I know there are people with my story.. who can't afford tummy tucks or dont want one. Where are those pictures? I just want to know that people with saggy skin and stretch marks are getting out there and flauntin it. I just need that for whatever reason.