Looking for support and accountability

I've seriously had this app on all my phones for about the last 3 years. I've lost up to 20 pounds only to gain it back and then some. I'm 5'1 at 220 pounds, and I'm starting to feel the toll of carrying this weight. My body hurts everyday. I feel bad about myself every day. I'm depressed and have turned to beer to make me feel good. I am a stay at home mom, my husband works graveyard and goes to school. I watch others peoples kids about 6 days out of the week. I'm stressed out and need to change. I'm looking for people who will build me up, encourage me to cook dinner, share healthy recipes, and also hold me accountable. I would also like to be that for someone. I'm 30 years old, and I want to be around for my daughter. I want to be serious this time and not give up after one mistake.