20-somethings struggling with body positivity?

I am 41 years old, have had 2 kids and I still struggle with this, I won't lie. I am not too far from my goal weight right now either, but have always been envious of women with a curvier body type. I have been learning, as I have 2 girls to embrace what I have. I have muscular legs, and I am busty, so those things I am happy with and have had compliments on. I try not to have my body negativity out loud, because I always think to myself. "Wow- I would not want my beautiful daughter hating her body like I do." So- I guess I have learned to look at myself differently. Still struggle, but more on an accepting level.

It took me a long time to get to the point where I'm happy with what I see in the mirror. Now, am I perfect? Heck no. I'm soon to be 38. My twenties, where everything was perky and gravity hasn't taken over yet, is all kinds of over.

I'm 5'11. It took almost 30 years to accept the fact that I'll never been dainty. I'll never be cute. But I can be healthy and strong and beautiful in my own way. I started out my journey 5 years ago at 193lbs. Today I'm 155. Could I lose more 10lbs? Sure. Will it make me better or happier, no.

I still have larger everything than I rather have. In a perfect world, I'd be a small B cup, about 135lbs and a size 0. In this world, I'm a 34DDD, about 155lbs and a size 8. You have to look at your life and figure out what works for you. I'm not happy when I'm obsessed about what goes in my mouth. And being thinner doesn't make me happy either (a few years ago I got to 143 and couldn't keep it there). I'm still proud that I'm not that overweight 193lb woman any more and almost forget what it was like.