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mjaquay21
mjaquay21 Posts: 15 Member
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My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

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  • singingflutelady
    singingflutelady Posts: 8,736 Member
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    Are you seeing an eating disorder specialist? It is difficult but possible to recover.

    BTW I wouldn't consider working out 6 days a week a lack of working out.
  • TavistockToad
    TavistockToad Posts: 35,719 Member
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    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

    have you spoken to your treatment team about this?
  • janicelo1971
    janicelo1971 Posts: 823 Member
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    not sure what you mean, "your lack of working out"? you state you work out 6 days a week? Even if you've been in recovery for years, though, there's a psychological risk to getting into a workout routine. Exercising means paying attention to your body in a way that can quickly turn critical and competitive. Just walking into a gym with mirrors can trigger competition between your body image and other females. Perhaps speak to your therapist about ways that you can slowly get back into working out. Or maybe speak to a nutritionist (if you don't have one) about a meal plan that can work with a new workout plan. If this website is pulling you back into old habits and triggering you, maybe doing something different and not using this is better. Everyone's journey is different and it sounds like you are acknowledging some of the obstacles you need to overcome, which is a great start! You should also try to find other hobbies to spend your time on other than exercising. Do something else that makes you happy and feel good about yourself. Keeping busy is the best solution for when you get that impulse to over-exercise. All the best to you.
  • mjaquay21
    mjaquay21 Posts: 15 Member
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    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

    have you spoken to your treatment team about this?
    yes :/
  • mjaquay21
    mjaquay21 Posts: 15 Member
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    singingflutelady wrote: »
    Are you seeing an eating disorder specialist? It is difficult but possible to recover.

    BTW I wouldn't consider working out 6 days a week a lack of working out.


    yes i go every week
  • mjaquay21
    mjaquay21 Posts: 15 Member
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    janicelo1971 wrote: »
    not sure what you mean, "your lack of working out"? you state you work out 6 days a week? Even if you've been in recovery for years, though, there's a psychological risk to getting into a workout routine. Exercising means paying attention to your body in a way that can quickly turn critical and competitive. Just walking into a gym with mirrors can trigger competition between your body image and other females. Perhaps speak to your therapist about ways that you can slowly get back into working out. Or maybe speak to a nutritionist (if you don't have one) about a meal plan that can work with a new workout plan. If this website is pulling you back into old habits and triggering you, maybe doing something different and not using this is better. Everyone's journey is different and it sounds like you are acknowledging some of the obstacles you need to overcome, which is a great start! You should also try to find other hobbies to spend your time on other than exercising. Do something else that makes you happy and feel good about yourself. Keeping busy is the best solution for when you get that impulse to over-exercise. All the best to you.

    I stopped seeing my nutritionist because of what she was saying to me-more triggering than anything- Any good hobbies you do I should try? Working out is the only thing that gives me my high
  • TavistockToad
    TavistockToad Posts: 35,719 Member
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    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

    have you spoken to your treatment team about this?
    yes :/

    and what did they advise....?
  • ClosetBayesian
    ClosetBayesian Posts: 836 Member
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    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    janicelo1971 wrote: »
    not sure what you mean, "your lack of working out"? you state you work out 6 days a week? Even if you've been in recovery for years, though, there's a psychological risk to getting into a workout routine. Exercising means paying attention to your body in a way that can quickly turn critical and competitive. Just walking into a gym with mirrors can trigger competition between your body image and other females. Perhaps speak to your therapist about ways that you can slowly get back into working out. Or maybe speak to a nutritionist (if you don't have one) about a meal plan that can work with a new workout plan. If this website is pulling you back into old habits and triggering you, maybe doing something different and not using this is better. Everyone's journey is different and it sounds like you are acknowledging some of the obstacles you need to overcome, which is a great start! You should also try to find other hobbies to spend your time on other than exercising. Do something else that makes you happy and feel good about yourself. Keeping busy is the best solution for when you get that impulse to over-exercise. All the best to you.

    I stopped seeing my nutritionist because of what she was saying to me-more triggering than anything- Any good hobbies you do I should try? Working out is the only thing that gives me my high

    You need to bring this up with your psychologist.
  • mjaquay21
    mjaquay21 Posts: 15 Member
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    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

    have you spoken to your treatment team about this?
    yes :/

    and what did they advise....?
    try and accept myself... l o l
  • luckyj214
    luckyj214 Posts: 41 Member
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    it is hard but we can do it .. small baby steps. Mind over matter. Life over death. Its ok to get better even if it means gaining a few pounds. I have been gaining weight and people tell me all the time how good i look ..even though it makes me cringe lol. But they are right!
  • TavistockToad
    TavistockToad Posts: 35,719 Member
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    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    TavistockToad wrote: »
    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    My guilt for what I'm eating and my lack of working out is driving me crazy.. I'm WR but I don't know how to get my mind off of the guilt I'm 5'7 and 125 pounds bmi of a 19.5 Workout 6 days a week any suggestions of how to eat healthy and feel less guilt?

    have you spoken to your treatment team about this?
    yes :/

    and what did they advise....?
    try and accept myself... l o l

    not sure why you find that funny?
  • singingflutelady
    singingflutelady Posts: 8,736 Member
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    You can msg me if you need to talk. I'm a mostly recovered anorexic binge/purge subtype
  • kshama2001
    kshama2001 Posts: 27,902 Member
    edited January 2017
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    mjaquay21 wrote: »
    janicelo1971 wrote: »
    not sure what you mean, "your lack of working out"? you state you work out 6 days a week? Even if you've been in recovery for years, though, there's a psychological risk to getting into a workout routine. Exercising means paying attention to your body in a way that can quickly turn critical and competitive. Just walking into a gym with mirrors can trigger competition between your body image and other females. Perhaps speak to your therapist about ways that you can slowly get back into working out. Or maybe speak to a nutritionist (if you don't have one) about a meal plan that can work with a new workout plan. If this website is pulling you back into old habits and triggering you, maybe doing something different and not using this is better. Everyone's journey is different and it sounds like you are acknowledging some of the obstacles you need to overcome, which is a great start! You should also try to find other hobbies to spend your time on other than exercising. Do something else that makes you happy and feel good about yourself. Keeping busy is the best solution for when you get that impulse to over-exercise. All the best to you.

    I stopped seeing my nutritionist because of what she was saying to me-more triggering than anything- Any good hobbies you do I should try? Working out is the only thing that gives me my high

    Unless you are venturing into exercise bulimia territory (or other disordered thinking about exercise), what's wrong with getting your high from working out?

    I see you're not happy with your nutritionist or your psychologist. I'm not sure if you need a new team or the common denominator is you.

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