Starting over

I'll try to make this short/sweet.

35 almost 36 years old female. 5'6". Morbidly obese. Starting weight 308 lbs. Lost 40 lbs then everything came to screeching halt when diagnosed with cancer. Between stress and treatment. I'm now back to 300lbs. Still morbidly obese and still wanting to loose weight.

The short of my weight loss from the prev. year. Doctor had me on Phentermine 37.5mg and that was alongside my epilepsy meds Topiramate 25mg 2/day. Including a water pill due to waterweight/odema. He had me on 800 cals a day or less. And I lost all 40 lbs on this. Weighed everything I ate with digital scale. Cut out all breads. Drastically cut down my sugar. For awhile was walking 1 mile a day. Then cancer diagnosis.

Found that if I even ate up to 1000cal a day, I would not loose a thing.. 6-8 weeks go by and nothing. Drop back down to 800cal a day and my body would start loosing again. (this was all with walking 1 mile a day and some very light weight training) I have fibro so I try not to over do myself or I'm stuck in bed for a few days.

Well I had to stop all meds (minus BP/topiramate) when cancer diagnosis came. Due to stress and treatment I didn't stick to 800 cal a day. I went up to 1500 - 1600. I am now back to 300lbs. And also I don't walk 1 mile a day anymore. I also quit the phentermine, as when he switched me to a new one (same part of phentermine family) I suffered tachycardia and it scared the dickens out of me.

I want to loose weight without that drug. I don't want to be dependent on this. I naturally have high BP probably in part due to my weight and little exorcise. I understand that is all on me. I accept that, but phentermine just makes it worse. And I know when I come off that drug again, I'll just gain wait back.. again like I've done now. (btw.. according to myfitnesspal. 1550 is my ideal cal. per day. Yet I gain so badly on it. I'm not sure why. I stopped logging myfitnesspal when I was in treatment because I was rarely home, and instead kept it in a notebook. I had to weigh things because nausea was never good, and it really limited what I could eat. But I had to up my calories so my treatments were easier to handle.

But I need to loose this weight. I don't want to die, and I'm tired of doctors blaming everything wrong with me on my weight. I have a cold (your weight causes your immune system to be bad) I twist an ankle( if you weighed less you would be less likely to fall/twist your ankle) And the list goes on and on. I'm tired of being looked at like everything is just because of my weight. So if any of you kind people out there can help I would appreciate it.

I'm looking for like minded people who need to loose 200+ lbs. who don't mind sharing healthy meals. I have tried to get my GP to let me see a nutritionist but they keep denying to refer me, saying they are able to assist me well enough. They also want to keep pushing phentermine on me. So I'm having to take this into my own hands so to speak. I'm on disability.. so i can't just go to a nutritionist as with medicare you have to be referred. Or I would have already gone down that road. Anywya.. enough about me. if you don't mind friending me.. I could so use it.. and if you don't mine letting me see how you do your meals I would appreciate it. Google only helps so much and I hate to eat the same thing every day. Thank you!!