HAS THIS EVER HAPPENED TO ANYONE ?

aka62792
aka62792 Posts: 98 Member
edited November 14 in Chit-Chat
UNBELIEVABLY, I really did not know I was getting fatter and fatter.
Since, I never left the house or got dressed, I did not see it.

2016 WAS the year from HELL ! I almost lost my Husband, My Mother-in-Law called me 10 times a day begging me to kill her. Then she died and I had to handle EVERYTHING ALONE. I had never planned a Funeral, so it was stressful. Then my Mom died six weeks ago, I got a Breast Cancer scare, my Brother got a Kidney Transplant and I had not idea I was a WOOLLY MAMMOTH.

We were going out to Dinner for Christmas Eve and I came out of the shower and saw myself in the mirror !! I had NO IDEA, WHO THAT WAS ? I started CRYING, BAWLING and refused to go out. NO ONE had told me, hey maybe you should weigh yourself.

I'm a strong person, however, I was very stressed out last year. I guess no one wanted to add to my stress ?
Whoever, that is in the mirror, will soon be gone.

Thank you, for listening
Allison

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  • Timshel_
    Timshel_ Posts: 22,834 Member
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    We all choose to focus on what we want. When the blinders come off though, you see the results with people who are on MFP.

    Here is hoping for a much better year for you.
  • Just_J_Now
    Just_J_Now Posts: 9,551 Member
    Wow, No I honestly can't say that's happened to me.

    Good luck to you.
  • RoxieDawn
    RoxieDawn Posts: 15,488 Member
    When the brunt of trauma hits you in the face like this, it can happen. Glad you are here. I wish you much success on your goals and a Happier New Year in 2017.

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  • synchkat
    synchkat Posts: 37,368 Member
    Hey I'm Alison too!!! well with one "L"

    Sounds like you had a year from hell which is something that I can understand because 2016 was my worst year ever too. I let health and fitness slide because when planning funerals and dealing with loved ones who are sick, hurting, needing attention we push ourselves to second place. Well I have decided that stopped as of yesterday. You're here, use the tools that MFP provides and get back on track. Chances are also that you see yourself as bigger than others do. Perception is annoying sometimes
  • everher
    everher Posts: 909 Member
    1. We do not talk about 2016. It never happened. NEVER HAPPENED.

    2. Yeah, no one wants to be the one to tell you that you've gained weight. I remember when I was getting fat I asked some friends if they thought I'd put on weight and they were like, "noooo, everher you look fine!"

    3. The moment you realize how much weight you've gained is always horrid. It always seems like it has happened overnight. And I've had more than a few of those who is that fat chick in the mirror scares myself.
  • Motorsheen
    Motorsheen Posts: 20,508 Member
    2016 can kiss my *kitten *.
  • Zombella
    Zombella Posts: 491 Member
    Yes. On my birthday a few years ago, we went to renew our drivers licenses. I walked outside, sure my picture looked great because my hair was great that day. I looked at my picture and it hit me like a ton of bricks. My face was huge and I realized that I was extremely overweight. I cried my eyes out and vowed to never get back to being that big.
  • HippySkoppy
    HippySkoppy Posts: 725 Member
    You aren't alone in not seeing. It happened to me too. My traumas and reasons why were different to yours but no less devastating and I think there are times when humans can only deal with so much and then no more.

    Don't be too hard on yourself and kick that put-down self talk to the curb. Now is the time for healing and self-care. Honour your feelings around ALL that you had to cope with last year get help if you need it and don't bottle it up so you eat yourself into a worse position.

    I really hope this year is kind to you and understand that what you see now may be really hard but without that insight you cannot move forward. You are obviously very brave and strong, channel some of that strength into putting your needs first.

    All the best and my sympathy on the loss of your Mum, Mother-in-law too. <3
  • thisonetimeatthegym
    thisonetimeatthegym Posts: 1,977 Member
    edited January 2017
    SoDamnHungry wrote: »
    If all you did was overeat to deal with the stress, that's really not that bad. I probably would have been in the fetal position next to the toilet drinking wine and taking bites out of a block of cheese. Kudos to you for your strength at a time when a lot of people needed you.

    2017 is your year! Good luck!

    Second this!
  • ThatUserNameIsAllReadyTaken
    ThatUserNameIsAllReadyTaken Posts: 1,530 Member
    This happened to me also. I was in my younger years. I sat around the house wearing pajama type pants and stuffing my face with baloney and cheese sandwiches. Double baloney. Double cheese. I would eat about 5 or 6 of these a day, also grits loaded with butter, and what ever else I could pack in. One day I decided to go somewhere and couldn't even pull my jeans up past my knees. That was a terrible moment. I stepped on the scale and BAM! 200 lbs. I lost the weight easily once I stopped shoveling in the baloney and cheese. But the shock was something else. It can be easy to just inflate and not even realize it.
  • VictoriaSeidel84
    VictoriaSeidel84 Posts: 2 Member
    my condolences to you and your family.. Keep your head up hon, take it one day at a time. it wont seem so overwhelming that way. trust in the process.
  • dc8066
    dc8066 Posts: 1,439 Member
    Hope your big troubles are over and that you'll have more timefor yourself to heal
  • NewlifeinNW
    NewlifeinNW Posts: 3,866 Member
    I didn't have that level of stress happen, but there was definitely a moment where I could not ignore what I had become any longer. Hang in there, best of luck making this a much better year.
  • aka62792
    aka62792 Posts: 98 Member
    I was so
  • GreenGoddess22
    GreenGoddess22 Posts: 3,818 Member
    You had a traumatic year, I hope life brings you peace soon! <3
  • LittleLionHeart1
    LittleLionHeart1 Posts: 3,655 Member
    edited January 2017
    dc6088 wrote: »
    Hope your big troubles are over and that you'll have more timefor yourself to heal

    o:) Ditto.....

    Someone up there wanted me to read your post, and all the caring responses. <3 It makes me feel like there are plenty of people who "get it" on Chit Chat.
    Now lets show 2017 whos Boss!
  • djeffreys10
    djeffreys10 Posts: 2,312 Member
    Not really, I knew I was getting fat. But then again, I am a guy. We will generally make fun of each other for getting fat and not get all butt hurt about it. I just got in shape because I was bored, all my friends were getting married, and I needed a hobby that I could do alone. So I started the gym.
  • DWBalboa
    DWBalboa Posts: 37,259 Member
    Sorry for your bad year. The one thing that always hold true about life is that it goes on. Therefore, so must we.

    Yes I saw myself getting fat but being laid up with a broken back, ruptured colon, and a colostomy it was kinda hard to do much about it.
    So when I could start walking again (And had the colostomy reversal) I started to workout again. I still deal with issues but I am my own worst enemy in that I don't plan my own diet as I should. I have a hectic schedule and I tend to eat whatever the misses cooks which often doesn't fit my lifestyle.
    We just have to get through whatever life throws at us and keep moving forward.
    Setting your mind to it is the first and often the hardest step.
    I wish you the best.
  • Squidgeypaws007
    Squidgeypaws007 Posts: 1,012 Member
    I'm so sorry you had such a rough year - I hope that your 2017 is better!

    This happened to me >.< I sort of knew I was getting bigger but I didn't really appreciate by HOW MUCH. Looked in the mirror one day and didn't even recognise myself. Not cool.
  • CTcutie
    CTcutie Posts: 649 Member
    Yes, I have gone through similar stuff, and first off, you NEED to be more kind to yourself, even though the feelings are rough- tell yourself what you would tell your BFF if she were in your situation. BUT being kind does NOT mean you ignore it. Now you are aware, and are here, so one day at a time, starting today!

    2017 WILL be a good year :smiley:
  • federicafezza4271
    federicafezza4271 Posts: 69 Member
    I understand what you mean as I have experienced it both ways.

    When I was 17, I lost a few kgs over a year and hit my lowest weight as an "adult" at 54 kg: I still saw myself kind of chubby just because my belly wasn't toned as my friends'.
    I now know that my BMI 18,7!
    Last september, at 24, I hit my highest weigh of 71 kg, BMI 24,6.
    I have weighted myself regularly, but the change has been so gradual and I always see the same person when I look in the mirror, even though my body and also my face are completely different from what they where when I was lighter.
    On this, I truly have to rely on the scale and on clothes size because I can't really assess my fitness just looking at myself, I think that's what happened to you as well!

    All this just to say, good luck for your weightloss and I genuinely wish you a 2017 so much better than 2016.
  • aka62792
    aka62792 Posts: 98 Member
    Thank you ! As I look at it, 2016 was such a bad year, nothing was similar to my life before. I turned into someone else, without seeing it. I am grateful that I saw what was happening and am correcting those behaviors. I also wish you the best for 2017 !
  • rugratz2015
    rugratz2015 Posts: 593 Member
    I'm sorry you have had such a tough year, little wonder you didn't realise what was happening. I have days where I forget how fat I am, and I think I look ok, then I see myself in a photo and realise how fat I am. now it's time to be nice to yourself and look after you and I hope 2017 is your year x
  • yayamom3
    yayamom3 Posts: 939 Member
    rugratz2015 wrote: »
    I'm sorry you have had such a tough year, little wonder you didn't realise what was happening. I have days where I forget how fat I am, and I think I look ok, then I see myself in a photo and realise how fat I am. now it's time to be nice to yourself and look after you and I hope 2017 is your year x

    Photos are a wake-up call for me every time! Ugh! The way I appear in photos and the way I look in my mind are not the same.
  • aka62792
    aka62792 Posts: 98 Member
    I was running around so much, no one took pics. Before the Renal Failure, I was NEVER Bigger than a size 4-6 . I CANNOT tell you, what a Shock Christmas Eve was. I was between a Rock and a Hardplace. I desperately wanted to lose weight but I was MORTIFIED by the way I looked.
    In 2016 I probably went out 5 times. I had to go to my Moms Funeral. I had not seen anyone in 5 years, the LOOKS had me in tears.
  • indiacaitlin
    indiacaitlin Posts: 691 Member
    Sorry to hear how tough your year was. Sometimes life gets in the way and that's okay! I never noticed how fat I had got until I was about to be in a production of Guys & Dolls and everyone could get their costumes to fit and I had to take the director to the side and ask for a bigger size, which they then had to source for me from another costume provider. I wanted the ground to swallow me whole. You got this though, and I hope that 2017 will be the best year for you!
  • everher
    everher Posts: 909 Member
    aka62792 wrote: »
    I was running around so much, no one took pics. Before the Renal Failure, I was NEVER Bigger than a size 4-6 . I CANNOT tell you, what a Shock Christmas Eve was. I was between a Rock and a Hardplace. I desperately wanted to lose weight but I was MORTIFIED by the way I looked.
    In 2016 I probably went out 5 times. I had to go to my Moms Funeral. I had not seen anyone in 5 years, the LOOKS had me in tears.

    People were giving you looks at your mother's funeral because you'd gained some weight? I feel outraged on your behalf.

    Don't take what anyone did to heart. Just because you've gained some weight doesn't mean you're not still you or you aren't still a wonderful person.

    My mother passed in May and I was trying to lose weight then (but had put on quite a bit) and after she passed I rapidly gained a good 15 lbs in a few months time.

    I'm just getting back to a mindset to be able to take care of myself. Don't despair. You're not alone.
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