Ready to start a new life

Next week I Wil be 42 yrs old. I need a new start on life. I have always been over weight, and the man of my dreams ( or what u though was my dreams) liked me just the way I was..even discourage me lossing weight. Even when I was so unhappy with myself. Well in November he left after 18yrs .. I was sick to my stomach for what seemed for ever...couldnt keep good down or even want to eat...i finally came out of it...and decided I wouldn't let him do this to me. So i tried to take a very sour lemon and make something that looks like lemonade. So i used what happens to jump start me into getting to my weight goal. I need support anyone is welcome to friend me I log on every day. It's hard to do this alone. This time next year I want to be healthy and happy.