Why I finally decided to lose weight....my story

cab2424 · January 2009

Since I was 18 (I am now 28) I started taking antidepressants. Almost immediatly I started gaining wieght little by little. Instead of recognizing that there was a problem, I just continued to let myself get fatter. Two years ago I had my daughter, during my entire pregnancy and for three months after, I quit the anti depressents and managed to keep my weight down a bit. Once I went back on them and continued my horrible eating habits I gained wieght again, and went above my highest pregnancy weight. I ended up weighing 232lbs and I am only 5'3". I hated the way I looked, but did not do anything about it for over a year.

Well this past year was devastating to me in early 2008 my younger and only brother tried to commit suicide, then my great Grandmother died in my car, next my brother went to jail for arson, and then in December my Grandmother passed away. The death of my grandmother hit me hard because she was the next best thing to my mom and she loved my daughter more than anyone could ever know. I was so sad that my daughter would not know her great-grandmother so I started to gather pictures to make a scrapbook. As I gather pictures, I realized I spent tons of time with my grandmother this past year, but never had any pictures of her and I or her, me and my daughter for the past year and a half. I also should have had pictures with my great grandmother or with all of the 5 generations. The reason I have no pictures was because I am so disgusted by myself I would not allow myself to be in pictures.

So this is my motivation to lose weight. I already lost out on having photographic memories of me and one of the most important people in my life, and I DO NOT want this to happen again. I want more pictures of my daughter and I. Plus I do not want her to end up like me.

Thank you everyone for the support. I hope that this motivation keeps me going. I am doing well with my diet, but I struggle everyday with sadness/

cab2424 · January 2009

Since I was 18 (I am now 28) I started taking antidepressants. Almost immediatly I started gaining wieght little by little. Instead of recognizing that there was a problem, I just continued to let myself get fatter. Two years ago I had my daughter, during my entire pregnancy and for three months after, I quit the anti depressents and managed to keep my weight down a bit. Once I went back on them and continued my horrible eating habits I gained wieght again, and went above my highest pregnancy weight. I ended up weighing 232lbs and I am only 5'3". I hated the way I looked, but did not do anything about it for over a year.

Well this past year was devastating to me in early 2008 my younger and only brother tried to commit suicide, then my great Grandmother died in my car, next my brother went to jail for arson, and then in December my Grandmother passed away. The death of my grandmother hit me hard because she was the next best thing to my mom and she loved my daughter more than anyone could ever know. I was so sad that my daughter would not know her great-grandmother so I started to gather pictures to make a scrapbook. As I gather pictures, I realized I spent tons of time with my grandmother this past year, but never had any pictures of her and I or her, me and my daughter for the past year and a half. I also should have had pictures with my great grandmother or with all of the 5 generations. The reason I have no pictures was because I am so disgusted by myself I would not allow myself to be in pictures.

So this is my motivation to lose weight. I already lost out on having photographic memories of me and one of the most important people in my life, and I DO NOT want this to happen again. I want more pictures of my daughter and I. Plus I do not want her to end up like me.

Thank you everyone for the support. I hope that this motivation keeps me going. I am doing well with my diet, but I struggle everyday with sadness/

porka29 · January 2009

You're a motivation to me and alot of folks here I'm sure, thanks for sharing your story. You'll see in my profile that I want to look better in pictures, still take them, but when side by side of what I used to be, very discouraging. For example, my bf posted some photos of us in Vegas/Hoover Dam from 2003 on Facebook, and I had several e-mails asking if we'd lost weight :laugh: Unfortunately, I am honest and had to tell them it was from years ago, his point is don't say nothing....that is just me though.

You're a great inspriation, thanks for sharing along with your personal reasons, alot hit home with me as well.

becks78 · January 2009

Im so sorry for the very difficult past year you had, I am extremely close to my grandma so I can only imagine,
I hope 2009 will be a much better year for you,

I think that often too, I have very few family pictures or any video because I am so put off by what I look like, Hopefully this year will change that for both of us.

cab2424 · January 2009

Thanks for the posts guys, remember even if you hate how you look, get in the pictures with the ones you love. Because you never know what life will bring next and you may regret not having those pictures (like I am) or god forbid if something were to happen to you your family may want those pictures.

Anna_Banana · January 2009

I glad you found the motivation to take control.:flowerforyou:

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