All I can do is try

Hi my name is Shanelle, and I am 34 years 5'3 and 274lbs. I am depressed about my weight, and I am so sad in the inside. I usually keep my sadness to my self and just smile but I am tired of that. What makes me the saddest is the love I have for food. I act like food is my God! I usually start a program and then I give up no matter how great the success is. This time though I want to make a life style change. I want to change the way I cook, the way I live, and the way I feed my children. I want a healthy life style. I just want a healthy way of living. So I am here!