hi, im new!

Hi, im going to be honest, im here to gain a little extra weight, but not alot, like I said just a little! Ive been struggling with my weight since october last year when I wieghed in at 13.7 stone at 5ft 3, and feeling absolutly disguisted with myself and my body even though i'd just had two children within the space of 18 months. It was at that time when I decided to change how I look, and drastic action was what i thought was needed. Over the following 7 months my life consisted of food, laxatives and vomiting, everything that went in had to come out. May this year i realised this had to stop, so I tried eating a little and keeping it inside me, which I did successfully for 7 days. Then come weigh in and i was 7 pounds heavier in just 7 days! I couldnt believe it, in all honesty it totally scared the hell out of me how quickly i gained weight on such small amounts of food. Not wanting to go back to using laxatives and vomiting, I then decided to eat even less, by this time my diet a day would consist of 10-15 haribo sweets and sips of fluids totaling up to around 200ml, I knew that everything that goes into my body will make me weigh more.
That was until Friday 15th July, finally after alot of going over things in my head and waiting I had an appointment with a specialist to help me out, I had already decided that gaining weight and eating more was the way to go, and feeling really positive about things. Im now eating reguarly, sometimes im feeling too much, but feeling good about food. Tomorrow is weigh in day, and im terrified, im terrified of the weight gain as im sure its going to be alot going by my last attempt at eating and the weight gain I had then, this time round im eating 100 times more food, so I can only imagine how much weight I have put on. One thing I know though is weighing in at 5.13 stone is not right and not normal, I look disguisting, my goal is to be a healthy 8 stone, no more and a clothes size of 6-8, at the moment a size 4 hangs off me so im wearing childrens clothes size 9-10. Thats me, weight gain from here on, wishing myself luck x