Accountability friends. Need reminded!

I am 30 years old. I am 342.9 pounds yesterday when I started counting again. decided that I am only going to weigh myself once a week. I was in the process of bariatric surgery and my insurance changed and will not cover it. I got the bad news Tuesday so yesterday I took a stand that I can do this. My goal weight is 170. My husband is in this process too. But I need a few friends on here to help me be accountable and to remind me why I am doing this. It's very hard! I have counted calories beofre and lost 30 pounds and then stalled. And the holidays hit and I gave up. I don't want to give up this time. I want to do this for me. To be healthy for.mu 2 year old daughter who needs a more active mom. A mom that can get on the floor east and play that can run around in the back yard. I want this. I need this. I pray I can be strong enough. I used to run when I was 19. I was not super skinny, but I was healthy. I want to run again!!!!