Lost weight and now regaining

queenn2014
queenn2014 Posts: 1 Member
edited November 2024 in Health and Weight Loss
Hello everyone! So in the past, i lost around 19 pounds through eating a little under 1200 calories and going for a run everyday ( i became obsessed and was working out for like 2 hours a day) and i became 101 pounds (i am 5 ft tall), i was happy but then my mom skinny shamed me saying i was too thin, so i gained back 4 pounds in 2 months, by eating 1600+ calories and was able to maintain this weight for awhile, still eating around 1200 calories, and started bike riding and not working out as much. and during my weight loss journey, i would not eat much snacks and not eat as much processed foods as i did before the weight loss. This all happened when i was 15 to 16 years old. i slowly stopped working out, would probably do it 1 to 3 times a week. Now that i am 18, i started university and i started eating more and more, and i've been going back into my old habits, i've been bingeing a lot and eating a lot when there is no one around, maybe every 2 days, eating the worst foods with a total of 2000+ calories per day. I recently gained 10 pounds and now i am only 5 pounds away from my starting weight (120 pounds). I am so depressed about my weight. i cannot stop controlling myself when i see food. i lost my abs and my thigh gap and my face is always so puffy and i get so frustrated when my parents comment about my weight. i am always comparing myself to other girls and i'm losing my motivation. i'm trying to go to the gym 5 times a week, but i know the real issue is my eating habits. My weight has become my obsession and i tell myself to not become so obsessed with the number on the scale but i can't stop. I'm always searching for tips and tricks for maintaining my weight. any ideas to cope with this?

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  • Iamnotasenior
    Iamnotasenior Posts: 235 Member
    So you've encountered the "Freshman 15". This is the 15 - 20 pounds most people gain when they first go away to college. It's caused by a new environment with new foods, more ease of eating junk food and perhaps, access to alcohol and going to parties. My advice would be to take a deep breath and stop being so hard on yourself. Number one would be to ask your parents to please back off on your weight because it's stressing you out and it's really none of their business. You are legally an adult and you can make your own decisions about food.

    Try keeping a journal and focus not so much on what you are eating, but on what emotions you are feeling. You might be eating to drown feelings or homesickness, anxiety about school, etc. If that's the case, then find a strategy other than food (or other subtances) to deal with those feelings like talking to friends, listening to your favorite music, taking a walk in a nearby park, getting a massage, or aroma therapy, etc. Tell yourself you're not going to worry about the scale for the remainder of the semester, only about academics, making friends, exploring everything that your school has to offer and getting comfortable with college life. Once you have accomplished those things, then you can go back and focus on those 15 pounds. If you really feel like you are obsessing and can't stop focusing on the weight, then seek out free and confidential counseling through your school's health center. They can help you get back on track emotionally.
  • LessCookiess
    LessCookiess Posts: 538 Member
    edited April 2017
    Please seek professional help for your obsessions and comparing yourself to others You're at a perfectly normal weight... and you're still developing. See a doctor and see a registered dietician if you want to learn to eat better and not be so obsessed. You can probably eat at maintenance and recomp your body without losing weight. I personally don't see what the obsession about a thigh gap is personally.
  • PamWOhio
    PamWOhio Posts: 120 Member
    You are 115lbs and freaking out? I agree. Seek some help.
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