I could really use some support.

First of all, I love your Dalek shirt. Do you like the new series? Im loving it.

I'm sorry that you're having such s rough time. Follow the advice of the regulars around here and you'll more than likely hit your weight loss goals, as many, many others have.

Secondly, you should look into talking to a pro about your anxiety and depression issues--and your propensity to isolate from others, if that's causing you strife (if that's just your jam, jam on).

Here's some personal biz of my own. I used to suffer from internalized misogyny, which blew my mind because I'm cis female and I didn't realize that was even a thing that could happen. I thought all women hated me because, I don't know, they didn't like my specialness/ugliness/weirdness/differrntness/whatever. This was a fiction I told myself: I was the only cool girl and only guys got me. (A few comics down--this was me I'm ashamed to say http://www.harkavagrant.com/index.php?id=357 ). That was of course a load of stinking bull that I told myself to make myself feel better about being akward. It turns out that women awesome and I was severely limiting myself by creating a negative and unfair worldview that fed my ego. Moreover, I also discovered that I'm queer and the paranoia I was experiencing around women was the fear of rejection. This stemmed from deep insecurities and also from experiences I had growing up with some cruel girls (who mostly grew up to be a-okay, actually).

This may not be what you're going through, but please take a magnifying glass to yourself. The problem is probably not women, and being a woman who hates women is an awful way to be.

I think you are over thinking it too much, surprisingly people are pretty much not thinking about you as much as you think they are. Also I think you look a bit scowly and cross, that is very off putting. Try smiling more and you might get a few smiles back.
Basicly all that you can control is how you behave and what you put out into the world, stop worrying about others and focus on being a positive, friendly person. Usually what you put out there comes back to you.

Consider a 12 step group like overeaters anonymous. The groups are mostly women who are in the exact same boat that you are and (hopefully) give you a sense of belonging.
Best wishes.

I started feeding the homeless a few years ago. I'd ask a person how they were, and they'd answer "fine". I gave the food and coffee and went to the next person. My friend would be feeding the same group and tell me their "stories". What was going on in their lives, whether they had kids or what job they used to have, and how they became to be without the means to afford housing.

I thought about this as it happened weekly. I observed my friend and how she interacted. She said the same thing as I did, but got a real answer, not the polite version. I'm a little shy in public, and as a kid was terribly shy. My friend wasn't outward going, she just really seemed to care about the answer to "how are you".

I decided that being polite wasn't good enough and I needed to learn to care, or at least to fake it until I could get more comfortable in this new way of being. I think the more you give of yourself, the more you get. Not from everyone of course but from a lot. Everyone has a story to tell, and once you find how to allow them to tell it, you'll have a much more rewarding time with others, whether friends or strangers.

I have a weight loss group on fb. Just women. We post food pics, tips and quotes to stay motivated and accountable. It's a group to support one another with weight loss and other life issues. Message me if interested.