My Biggest issue with staying on track...

First, your diary isn't visible, so it is difficult to make suggestions. That being said, the first thing to do is get rid of all the junk food in your house if you can't leave it alone. Have some fruit or veggies already cut up so you can just grab without having to prepare when the munchies hit. Ask yourself if you are really hungry or just bored, upset, etc. Eating for any reason other than true hunger needs to be looked at and worked on from another angle. Food won't make any of your problems better, just make you feel worse and defeated afterwards. You basically said it yourself... you just don't care enough... We didn't get to where we are by accident and we won't get to where we want to go without some sacrifice and a hard look at why we eat. When you care enough about yourself to make the changes, it will get easier. I wish you all the best!

For me, all I need to regain excitement is to troll the MFP "success stories" board. Then I look at pictures of me and imagine them being a "before". Works every time for working out... not so much for the food though :-)

Think of your favorite comfort foods and search the web for ways to make them "healthified". Look for healthier alternatives, that will still satisfy your cravings. Put portions on your plate, and put the rest immediately away in a storage container and into the fridge/freezer. Bulk up your meals with fresh salads, fruits and veggies, so you get to eat more volume and feel like you've had more than you really did. Try your best to use whole foods, no pre-packaged meals. They have hidden sugars and salts and often leave you craving more. If you cook your own recipes, you know whats in it. I cook big batches of things on my day off and freeze single-servings of them, so they're handy for work days. And, exercise. The more you exercise, the more foods you get to eat.

As for the mental part of this, man that's the hardest part. I have struggled with that for over a year, trying desperately to get back on track. There are so many reasons to give up, but there are much more important reasons to NOT give up. You deserve to be healthy, to have energy, to treat your body like a temple, to feel amazing in your jeans, to walk up the stairs without feeling out of breath, you deserve to feel great in your own skin. You have to find a way to get into your head and identify what is going to motivate you and shut that little "give up now" voice right up. Post positive statements on your fridge and cabinets as a reminder of why you're doing this. Look in the mirror every day and say "I can do this, I deserve this, I love me". And MEAN it. And if you don't mean it right now, keep on saying it anyway, until you do mean it.

Whatever happens, don't give up on yourself. Break that cycle of negative self-talk and focus on the healthy benefits of this journey. Both physically and emotionally, you will feel so much better. You can do this!

I like to drink lots of water with meals and snacks. Helps me feel fuller. If you're going to eat something not so good for you, try to eat something healthy first. Like I'll have a salad with minimal dressing on it before I'll have a slice of pizza. It fills you up so you dont eat as much bad stuff. Also I like to try to get the most bang for my buck. Eat something like oatmeal in the morning with a big glass of water. It keeps me full for a long time. Be creative about finding things that are low cal and don't get discouraged by minor set backs. I try to eat pretty light during the day so that I can have a nice dinner in the evening. I don't go crazy with the calories, but it helps me to know that I have a decent dinner to look forward to. Also, you will get used to it! It took me two weeks before I felt satisfied by the correct amount of calories, but it WILL happen. Just be patient. It gets easier. Good luck!

We are ALWAYS going to have temptations. It is ok to give in every once in a while and have a serving .

I have to keep all temptations out of my house. If I don't I would be like you. If we go to a cookout , I allow myself to have *some of * the temptation.

I just don't care enough.

There's your problem, and I don't think anybody can help you with that. The only advice I have for you is perhaps make a list of all the reasons why you want to lose weight. Post it somewhere you can see everyday, and if it's not enough to get you to start caring, you need better reasons in the first place!