I want to lose once and for all.

I am Meagan from an Asian country. Where everyone is small. I have always been a fat baby, girl and adult. In between I have tried to lose weight always gained it back. I am 43 years old. Just went through a divorce and often teased by colleagues for my weight because I am in a women industry. I want to lose weight because I want to be healthy. I want to travel the world. And want to runaround with my grandkids when I am older. I determined to do it. Please be my buddy. I need a motivation buddy.