Mental Health..

I think I might be on the verge of getting some sort of eating disorder. I was diagnosed with depression a few months ago, so I'm not the most stable person to begin with.
About 2 months ago I decided I was unhappy with my body and started losing weight. It's slowly gotten to the point where I'm thinking about it for most of the day and it's starting to worry people around me.
I hate how I look and even though I've lost weight I feel worse.
I'm in high school and have a healthy BMI but still look fatter than most of my peers.
Any advice? Idk what to do.

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  • chickpeanna
    chickpeanna Posts: 3 Member
    Break up your routine. Make a list of things to respond to yourself when you are feeling stuck on thoughts that are positive, like, "I can learn how to take care of myself and have fun. My friends and family love me for me." Maybe talk to an adult that you respect and feel comfortable with, or you could reach out to a school counselor or someone to get ideas. Take heart! You're definitely not alone with these kinds of feelings and things can get better.
  • MichelleSilverleaf
    MichelleSilverleaf Posts: 2,027 Member
    From your profile picture you look fine to me, but I've also dealt with anxiety and depression long enough to understand how it feels when your mind is so dead-set on a thought, even if it's not true. And it took a lot of years before I could look in the mirror and actually like who I saw there, I started making progress on that when I stopped attributing attractiveness to my weight. My advice? Start breaking the negative thought pattern. Easy to say I know, it may be tough at first but once you start making headway on that it will get easier. Stop focusing on your peers because you're not in competition with them (even if it feels like it). Find aspects of yourself that you like - fond of painting your nails perhaps, or like your hair or your eyes. Maybe there's some hobby you enjoy or some past time that makes you happy - if not, find one. Try some new things that take you out of your mind for awhile. That's one of the most important things. When you spend too much time alone with your thoughts it wears you down like a vicious cycle, but if you can find even one thing that 'distracts' for lack of a better word for awhile can be a great reprieve. Start a journal if it helps, get all those thoughts unrestricted on paper and out of your mind. And don't be afraid to keep reaching out.