Third time lucky!

fab_for_40
fab_for_40 Posts: 14 Member
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Hi all. So today is the day I've decided that enough is enough. I tried to lose weight 2 times already (on here).

First time round I lost 30kg / 70lbs / 5 stone in 4 months and eventually started liking myself a little bit. Then things at home got tricky and with a bereavement to deal with, I put it all back on in no time.

So I tried again ... But failed miserably and now I'm back to where I started ... weighing at shameful 150kg / 330lbs / 23.6 stone.

The trouble with me is, I'm a self confessed emotional binge eater and have been all my life. Thinking about it, I've always been "big" and the time has come to do something about it.

So please feel free to add me for a mutual accountability and support as there's no time to waste if I really want to look fab on my 40th birthday next May!

Mags

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  • klaramarina
    klaramarina Posts: 43 Member
    Hi, I am also turning 40, but in a couple of months. I too have been on binge eating numerous times until the last time that I got sick with vomiting, and diarreah that lasted a week, first time that something horrible like that has happened to me. Other health problems that I had is that last year I had my gallbladder taken out, this was due for the last 8 years of bad eating habits. Also, last year like two months before surgery I was like 208 which was my heaviest that I knew, I am 5'5' . So my story of how everything started is that like 8 years ago I was probably around 135 and I joined the gym to loose 10 pounds, also because I wanted to exercise because I like working out, well I sprained my ankle and left the gym, then I put probably 10 more pounds, then the following year I got a dog and every day that I walked him in the afternoons I bought an ice-cream at the store at the corner of my Block, eventually after weeks I also got a coke and cookies besides the daily ice-cream. Then I started getting even more lazy and was buying prepared food and ate big portions or ocassionally cooked and ate big portions, sometimes I felt bad and exercised, but food was there like possessed me, an addiction that everyday I gotta have fish with a lot of rice, French fries, chicken with a lot of rice and beans, and of course later dessert.
    So what I tell you is that is not worth it, your health, your self-steam. You are what you eat, sad but it is, it is an addiction because sugar, bad carbs, grease, is addictive and not good for you, why we are losing the best years of our lives fat, lazy, it is not worth it.
    Now I am around 170 and I am trying to be close to 150 by mid august when I turn 40.
    I am re-learning how to eat again not to how to unnourish or binge again, maybe it will happen to me again, but I am fighting so much for not fall into that trap again. Write if you want or ask me anything.
    Currently, I exercise 3-5 times a week and I journal everything that I put in my mouth, I try to balance the fruits, the vegetables, the carbs, the protein that I my body needs, remember your body is your representation of who you are, and only good things you have to allow in it because you are so valuable that you don't need any junk in it try hard to make that switch and take your time, once you get a hang of it you will love it. Good luck to you you can do it
  • klaramarina
    klaramarina Posts: 43 Member
    Also, I forgot to tell you is to get your blood work and see where you are, last year before my surgery in those two months that I lost weight my doctor was in shocked
  • kommodevaran
    kommodevaran Posts: 17,890 Member
    Welcome back!

    Your post spoke to me. I just wanted to say this, you don't have to do it or believe it or accept it. Heck, you don't even have to read it!

    But anyway.

    Losing weight is simply over time eating less than you burn. Not about luck. But you have to be committed, not just try.

    If you can distance your emotions from your weight loss endeavour, it will be easier. You are not your weight. You can't only like yourself if you are thin, because you are the same person at every weight.

    You can change habits. Just because you have been doing something for a long time, it doesn't mean that you always have to do it. It can feel scary, but scary isn't the same as dangerous.

    Wanting to lose weight is good if you are overweight, but if looking fab is your only motivation to stick
    to an appropriate calorie intake, your motivation will be long gone when you hit goal weight, and probably dissolve at the first obstacle. And life is nothing but a series of obstacles that you have to tackle. Be prepared to tackle those obstacles, and to handle that you can't always tackle them, and that that is okay.
  • fab_for_40
    fab_for_40 Posts: 14 Member
    Thank you for replying! It's definitely not going to be a journey of just getting thin to look fab. I hate feeling tired and lazy (which I'm not, being on my feet all day working) but the moment I get home, I won't move for ages... So it's going to be a new lifestyle I'm embracing. And I've always thought that people who love exercising and get even addicted to it are bonkers but I can't actually wait to get to this point, where eating healthy and fitness are my new, positive, "addictions". :smile:

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