Here I go again...

The important thing is that you are back and trying to take the weight off. Just take it one day at a time and you will succeed......you've proved you can do it. I have been struggling for 5 years but what's important is I don't give up. Good luck on your journey.....the results at the end are worth it.

I lost 99 3/4 pounds doing WW about 15 years ago (total about 120 including the weight I lost before joining). I spent months at 99 3/4 pounds per WW and could not get that last quarter pound off and was not happy.

I have learned throughout my life that my weight is reflective on my level of happiness, unfortunately. I am an emotional eater. I love food. I eat when I'm happy, sad, bored, alone, depressed, you name it. Typically though my weight gains evolve around my two divorces - both divorces, and the second divorce also happened around the same time as the death of my oldest brother. On top of losing my brother, shortly afterwards I had an incredible job offer so I gave 2 week's notice to my employer - then the day before my last day at that job, the job offer fell through and I could not even collect unemployment because technically I had quit my job. So I was at an all-time low emotionally. My weight gain was way out of control and I was in such a terrible depression that I would eat and avoid mirrors. This was almost 4 years ago now.

I have battled many health issues as well since 2004 which didn't help. I've had fibroids that make me have terrible cycles and I would have my "monthly" about 3 out of 4 weeks every month. The cravings that went along with those cycles were something I opted to give into and stopped caring so much.

I started trying to tackle the mountain of weight I had gained after finally moving back "home" to the city I grew up in 3.5 years ago after being out of the state/area since 2006. I found a job after a few months of being unemployed and unable to collect unemployment because technically I quit my job to go to the next one that fell through. I went through my entire savings and was thankful for the roof over my head and food on the table supplied by my other half who at the time was an alcoholic and very difficult to live with (obviously added to my depression and weight gain). I'm not blaming anyone for this but myself. I take full responsibility for where I was at. I am a firm believer that WE are the ONLY ONES who can truly be responsible for our own happiness.

Anyways I was finally trying to work on me. And finally in November of 2016 I had the hysterectomy I should have had years ago (my OB GYN refused to do it prior to then because he knew I wanted kids but was never successful in my attempts to get pregnant due to the fibroids).

Since the hysterectomy and then in November emergency surgery to alleviate a badly herniated disk in my neck that crushed my spinal cord and should have made me a quadraplegic (sp). So by March of this year I was permitted to start normal physical activity. I FINALLY feel pretty good for the first time now in YEARS.

I am down almost 50 pounds from that heaviest weight. I am only lately being true to myself with myfitnesspal and this journey.

We are all human. We lose, we gain. Some of us struggle more than others but the battle for me is real. And I believe that I can lose that 120 plus pounds again. And I believe you can do this again, too.

The moral of the story is - YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE ALL have battles. We all have a story behind how we got to where we are, healthy or not, or getting healthier!!!! I believe we can all do this if/when we want to apply ourselves. And I WILL DO THIS WITH YOU!!!!!

If anyone is reading this and is looking for someone to celebrate the ups and downs with, please friend me. I am always happy to grow my friends and support! I will do my best to encourage you whether you are succeeding or fighting the fight and struggling with me. I will be there next to you, rooting for you!! WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER!! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!