Starting over

Hi Everybody. I'm Bri.

I'm posting here because this is about my 5th time to say "I'm starting over" or "This is my fresh start", but at this point, I'm out of options and I have to start making my health my number one priority. You ever have one of those moments where you realize you've been putting your energy into everything and everyone and putting your health absolutely last? I'm guilty of grabbing a large fry at McDonalds because I don't have enough time between a rehearsal and helping a friend to cook a meal. I'm guilty of burning myself out trying to be 12 places at once and only wanting to sit on my couch when I get home instead of getting my butt up and exercising.

The thing is, my big goal in life right now is to start a family with my husband. I'm not comfortable personally getting pregnant until I lose between 50-75 pounds, not only because of the personal risks, but also because I don't want to put myself in a position where after I have the baby I have over 100 pounds to lose or more. I want to be a good example for my future child, and I want to be able to live a long and healthy life with my family, and right now, I'm not setting myself up for success in that regard. I believe I can do it, but its' going to be hard, attentive, consistent work, which up until now, I have failed at. I will have bursts where I'm killing it in the gym, but I've never been great at paying attention to my nutrition. I want my health to become number one, and that's why I'm here. I've seen friends have amazing success with My Fitness Pal (one lost almost 100 pounds, another is around 25 at the moment.) My body has changed over the last two years because of the work I've been putting in at the gym, but it's time to go all in and do this thing for real.

Anyone else have more than 50 pounds to lose? Would love to hear how you are keeping yourself consistent and accountable, especially with the holidays coming!