Need People to kick my butt

The best advice I can offer, is to stop looking outside for accountability. What you eat and how much you exercise is nobody else's business. If you've yoyo'ed, your plan hasn't been sustainable. Maybe your goal has been a bit ambitious too. Normal weight and normal fitness is attainable for every healthy person. Use your food diary. Hit that calorie target, every day. Get moving. If you're already moving, move a little more. That's all you have to do, but you have to do that, for real, and forever.