Food is step one. Emotional change is step two.

I’m maintaining now. But when losing I gave my all to my journal. I lost the last 40lbs of 100 by keeping a journal. Food scale, research, planning, it was my hobby. I made goal and kept tracking for five years. The only time I took off were my week long vacations.

Once I convinced myself that I was never going to have the out of not tracking, I found that tracking would save me from my unhelpful tendencies. I really did order a pizza with the intention of eating the whole thing. But when I got to the third piece, the voice came “Really, how many calories is this going to be?” I was going to have to write it down.

If I didn’t write it down I was throwing all my effort out the window. Don’t get me wrong, there were plenty of times I ate too much. Lapses, math mistakes, lack of focus, but it all was written down. The process is more important than the numbers.

What I’m suggesting is that if you invest in the process, you can neutralize your unhelpful moods. Tracking is a way to move ahead regardless of how you feel at any point in time. The few times I actually forgot, I made a good faith effort to go back and fill it in. The only way to mess it up is to decide not to do it.

There’s a long learning curve, but eventually, I knew most of the numbers. I suppose it helps that I eat the same things a lot and they’re pretty basic. My meals are mostly cooked on weekends and go in the microwave.

I tracked with pen and paper. Only takes a couple of minutes if you don’t have to do a lot of math. The gadgets weren’t quite as useful when I started as they are now and I found the computer a pain. I kept the journal on the kitchen counter next to the food scale.

I can be an emotional eater too
And my job gets stressful at times

For me cutting out sugar is key. Now I have No blood sugar fluctuations (that drive me to eat more carbs or desserts) I don't get hangery. My hormones feel balanced. I feel in control even when things are stressful. It has made things easy. Sugar is a drug.

I really only indulge on my birthday or big milestones. I bake desserts with stevia so I don't feel like I miss out. They're delicious!
I know it's not for everyone, but def try it if ur interested!!

Otherwise, keys to long term success - goals!
Whether it's a fun run, reaching a certain dress size, hiking a mountain, getting your family involved in fitness! Goals keep us moving forward and on the long-term track to success/maintenance

That and Perspective. We only feel upset or in pain when we lose perspective on the bigger picture of life

Your post makes it sound like you already know you're going to sabotage yourself. But why? Believe in yourself. You are strong. You can handle the stress. If anything, stressful times are the times it's most important to take care of your health! None of us are getting any younger

Your life is sacred

And I'll be here cheering you on. Especially in April

Never give up