Frustration

HOLY MOLY GIRL!!!!!!!!!!! Your body is stressed to the max. STOP(!!!!) worrying about LOSING the weight, you need to make sure you don't lose your MIND first.
My heart goes out to you....but please know that your mental health is just as important as your healthy body! Hang in there!!!!

the last 20 pounds is the hardest to lose so stop beating yourself up. Will 20 put you at the "perfect" number? We all have or had one. The number that we picture in our head will make us look like the next cindy crawford or halle berry (yeah my age is showing here :happy: ) I decided that there is no such thing as a perfect number. It is an imagined number that we think will make us perfect. I had one, it was 126. I decided a few months ago, to sustain that number, I would have to eat 1200 calories for the rest of my life. I now weigh 135. I now consider it my perfect number. It took me all my life to realize this. I can eat, I exercise, I have no rolls and I have muscle tone. Is my body perfect nope not a chance, but I realized there is no perfect. Your fiance is marrying you because he loves you and the way you look, don't ruin your anticipation of your upcoming day because you think you may not reach your goal. You are just beating yourself up and making yourself feel bad. Geez you are adding to all that stress you are already under. You wouldn't let someone else treat you like that so why let yourself.

I think your problem, besides wanting the weight off yesterday (I was there too) and thinking you are working like a dog and getting nowhere (yep me again) you are feeling like you are working so hard and you get nothing but disappointment. I can relate.

Every day that you work out and eat properly is one day closer to where you want to be, even if the scale doesn't immediately show it. That is what you have to keep remembering. Unfortunately, we are not patient people, and that sometimes our impatience ruins whatever good intentions we set out with. My progress was slow. It took me about six months to get 7 pounds off. Sounds awful I know, but when I got it off, I was toned and in shape and realized I didn't have to lose 17, seven did it for me.

You work out a lot. A lot more than me. You are burning a lot of calories, I think you need to trick your body for a while and feed it more. I know you only have a couple of months so not much time to try new things, but if you read the posts on here a lot of people couldn't lose until they upped their calories to around 1400 per day plus their exercise calories. If you are eating 1200 your body doesn't have any extra to work with and can barely squeak out the essential function with what you are feeding it. Fuel is as important for your body as it is for a car. When a car runs out of gas, it chugs and goes on and does not work properly. When your body runs out of food it knows it can't work properly and slows down your metabolism so it can reserve energy for its essential functioning, so it isn't letting go of the love handles when you aren't giving it enough. They are the body's reserve and it will do everything it can to keep them. From the amount you are working out, and stressing and not sleeping, I think your body requires more. Maybe you underestimate how many calories you burn when you exercise.

I know eating more goes against what we have learned our entire lives to lose weight, but it is logical, enough calories in are a necessary part of living. It makes your body work right.

I hope no one takes offense, just my thoughts on what has worked for some people in the past and myself. Repeat, every day to yourself "I exercise and eat properly, I am one day closer to my goal, whether the scale says it or not. That can be your mantra