hit a wall

drabbits2
drabbits2 Posts: 179 Member
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I have used My Fitness Pal before with HUGE success--if I stay honest, it really works. Eat less, move more--how many times do I have to go over that?? And yet...here I am again. For the past two years I have been in pain from a back issue. On December 12 I had a big back surgery that fixed the back issue (rod and three pins, metal spacer and bone graft). Monday I was released by my doc to walk (like longer distances), swim, elliptical, bike, do a little yoga, just no weights. Well, those are plenty of options to lose the 15 pounds I put on while in pain for two years. And yet...I have been binging like crazy this week. What is the deal??? This morning I went through the fridge and pantry and threw out every single item of junk food. Yes, I was mad, I may regret it, but too late now. So--currently 164, would like to be 150 or below. I am 47 years old, 5'8" tall with no other heath issues. Pretty sure that is realistic. I set all my goals and current weight, etc. One pound per week. This isn't that hard, I don't even know what I am wanting back, just need to get my sh** together and stop making excuses. I am no longer in pain. I have the time and the place to be active, the weather where I am is fine. There is really nothing I can use as an excuse.
Okay--not looking for anything, just had to see it in print. Stop messing around and get going already. (me, not the rest of you!!!!)

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  • drabbits2
    drabbits2 Posts: 179 Member
    Oh you are 100% correct--I am all or nothing! If I can't have the entire sleeve of thin mints, then forget it, I don't want any (picture me stomping my foot like a petulant 4 year old...) I do realize that is not a great outlook for maintaining healthy relationships with food. The amount of crap food in my house really was out of hand, so even without an "all or nothing" mindset, it wasn't a bad thing to pitch the garbage. Now, that said, my 18 year old is a HUGE ice cream guy and I happened to be at a Ben and Jerry's store yesterday (there is only one in our area, about 45 minutes away--there was another store in that mall I had gone for) and I got him a few flavors they don't have in regular grocery stores and I ate a very small scoop of a flavor I have never seen before. I just don't want it in my house, because I can assure you if I had bought a pint of that amazing flavor, I would have inhaled the entire thing. So it's a small victory, but it felt like a decent start-that I can have a small portion of something, enjoy it, and carry on with my day. His flavors I won't eat (they are amazing but I got them for him). I don't think it means I have an unhealthy relationship with food overall if there are certain things I just cannot keep in the house (potato chips) or I will just not have any reasonable self control, but right now I had to get ahold of my immature self. I am like this out in the world too--if there is a good bakery, forget it--I have to get a thousand things. Why I cannot choose one or two items and carry on--no idea. It's not like that bakery or all the bakeries are going to vanish tomorrow. Clearly this is something mental I need to work on, give some very serious thought to and practice new behaviors. I would like to be a normal eater who can have a treat or two and not lose their minds, eating like the world is ending. So Tinkerbellang, you were not wrong!!! Thank you for the feedback. Any and all advice is welcome-it should be obvious I don't really have this eating-exercising thing nailed yet!!!
  • tinkerbellang83
    tinkerbellang83 Posts: 9,129 Member
    drabbits2 wrote: »
    Oh you are 100% correct--I am all or nothing! If I can't have the entire sleeve of thin mints, then forget it, I don't want any (picture me stomping my foot like a petulant 4 year old...) I do realize that is not a great outlook for maintaining healthy relationships with food. The amount of crap food in my house really was out of hand, so even without an "all or nothing" mindset, it wasn't a bad thing to pitch the garbage. Now, that said, my 18 year old is a HUGE ice cream guy and I happened to be at a Ben and Jerry's store yesterday (there is only one in our area, about 45 minutes away--there was another store in that mall I had gone for) and I got him a few flavors they don't have in regular grocery stores and I ate a very small scoop of a flavor I have never seen before. I just don't want it in my house, because I can assure you if I had bought a pint of that amazing flavor, I would have inhaled the entire thing. So it's a small victory, but it felt like a decent start-that I can have a small portion of something, enjoy it, and carry on with my day. His flavors I won't eat (they are amazing but I got them for him). I don't think it means I have an unhealthy relationship with food overall if there are certain things I just cannot keep in the house (potato chips) or I will just not have any reasonable self control, but right now I had to get ahold of my immature self. I am like this out in the world too--if there is a good bakery, forget it--I have to get a thousand things. Why I cannot choose one or two items and carry on--no idea. It's not like that bakery or all the bakeries are going to vanish tomorrow. Clearly this is something mental I need to work on, give some very serious thought to and practice new behaviors. I would like to be a normal eater who can have a treat or two and not lose their minds, eating like the world is ending. So Tinkerbellang, you were not wrong!!! Thank you for the feedback. Any and all advice is welcome-it should be obvious I don't really have this eating-exercising thing nailed yet!!!

    I think the root of this, at least for, is we are told a lot of foods we enjoy are bad, they aren't bad, they just might not be as nutritious as other foods, which leads us to restricting them or seeing them as a cheat on a diet, instead of having a balanced diet of foods we enjoy.

    I don't know about you, but I have no intention of giving up all the things I enjoy for the rest of my life, so I have had to find a way to change that mindset, it started with small changes like switching from buying a large bar of chocolate on a weekend and eating the whole thing to buying a pack of small dairy milk bars (kids size treat bars) and having 1-2 of those with a cup of herbal tea in the evening within my calories. Now I've switched to a brand of Protein bar which tastes pretty much like a Raspberry/Dark Chocolate Mars Bar which helps me meet my Protein Goal for the day as well as being bloody tasty and getting my choccy quota in!

    I get that there are some things you won't want to buy in, I have to do the same with fresh bread, I can only eat it if I am out somewhere, because if I buy it in my self-control goes out of the window and I will eat the whole thing.

    With ice cream have you tried the Halo Top or similar products, they are around 250-300 calories for the whole pint as opposed to the 1000+ in a Ben & Jerry's?
  • drabbits2
    drabbits2 Posts: 179 Member
    Hi again! I have tried Halo Top and I really do not like it. I have tried several flavors and it just does nothing for me. I'm a big girl, just need to put on my big girl pants and make better choices. It's so easy for me to know what I need to do and so hard to just DO IT already. I have had a much more in control of myself few days. I had half of a gigantic scone yesterday, not the entire thing that leaves me feeling stuffed (no all or nothing thinking).
    Thanks for chiming in on my comment!

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