Fit By 40 Total Transformation

Hey everyone. I'm Mandy and I'm 39. For the last 9 years I have been chasing Total Fitness. One time in 2012 I actually reached my weight goal of 150 and then I quit on total Transformation and eventually gained all the weight back. I was now 218 lb, depressed, in a terrible marriage, and surrounded by horrible people which only led me to gain more weight. I am an emotional eater, food has always been my friend, food is love. My life made some drastic changes, I divorced the jerk, dropped the horrible friends and family that only added to the negativity and I found myself again. Well, fast forward 6 years and I'm happily married to a wonderful man and started a whole new chapter. Even finding the job of my dreams. So now, I turned 39 in December and truly looked at myself in the mirror and decided I needed to make a change. I went on a diet losing 16 lbs but waa still not happy with what I was seeing in the mirror. So I found bodybuilding.com and started following everyone that was doing their 250k Total Transformation Challenge in 12 weeks. Even though it was too late for me to enter the contest I decided I was going to do the same thing in 12 weeks for myself. I am currently on week 5, exhausted, I have no sex drive, and my poor darling husband is exhausted as well and cannot keep up with the workouts. So, in a nutshell, that's my story. I know I will get there I have already seen quite a few changes in my body and I cannot wait to see where I can go with this. I turn 40 in less than 7 months and I plan on being in a bikini on a beach in Hawaii looking my best ever at 40. Wish me luck. Would love to hear your stories.