2-Week Binge HAS TO STOP

ellelit
ellelit Posts: 806 Member
edited September 19 in Health and Weight Loss
uggg... i've been having a hard time over the last 2 weeks, and i am having trouble getting my life back on track. i'm not sure what triggered it intially, but i think it has something to do with my boss confronting me and saying she thought i was suicidal.

i'm not at all, but just the fact that someone would be bold enough to bring something like that to my attention has made me sort of spiral out of control. i was doing so well. i had gone over 4 weeks without fast food, without bingeing and with being grateful for everything that happened in my life. right now i am once again in a funk, and i seem like i am int he same comatose state i was for almost the entire 2008 year.

i dont want to go through 209 like this, and i am going to try to hop back on the plan tomorrow. i'm just down, frustrated and ashamed that i have let myself go again. i look in the mirror, and when 2 weeks ago, i was so proud of myself and my small accomplishments, today i feel regret, shame, hatred and guilt...

tomorrow is a new day, i know that fur sure, but i still feel bad that i've let myself, my friends and everyone else down.

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  • ellelit
    ellelit Posts: 806 Member
    uggg... i've been having a hard time over the last 2 weeks, and i am having trouble getting my life back on track. i'm not sure what triggered it intially, but i think it has something to do with my boss confronting me and saying she thought i was suicidal.

    i'm not at all, but just the fact that someone would be bold enough to bring something like that to my attention has made me sort of spiral out of control. i was doing so well. i had gone over 4 weeks without fast food, without bingeing and with being grateful for everything that happened in my life. right now i am once again in a funk, and i seem like i am int he same comatose state i was for almost the entire 2008 year.

    i dont want to go through 209 like this, and i am going to try to hop back on the plan tomorrow. i'm just down, frustrated and ashamed that i have let myself go again. i look in the mirror, and when 2 weeks ago, i was so proud of myself and my small accomplishments, today i feel regret, shame, hatred and guilt...

    tomorrow is a new day, i know that fur sure, but i still feel bad that i've let myself, my friends and everyone else down.
  • sgaston2002
    sgaston2002 Posts: 3
    Ellelit, I'm so sorry your boss has upset you, but at least you have one who is concerned about you. Does your organization have an EAP (Employee Assistance Program)? If so, maybe it would be a good idea to go talk to someone about why your boss upset you so much.

    I think it's great you have lost 7 pounds, and have gone 4 weeks without fast food. You are right that every day is a new day, and I hope tomorrow is a great one for you.
  • RhondieJFB
    RhondieJFB Posts: 50
    I have mentioned here how I have health issues. I am down to PT work as a cashier.. I am better than that, but with my illness, that's all I can do for now. I wish I could go back to my career, but I cant'. Even though I am PT I am still out alot because of my migraines that I get 3-5 times per week. My boss called me in his office on Friday and basically in not so many words wanted me to quit. I told him that this job is sometimes the only thing that makes me feel needed where I am so sick and I am not going to quit. I cried all weekend.

    Let yourself feel the feelings... cry.... scream.... do whatever you need to do......it might help you to not turn to food.

    You didn't let anyone down... your just in a funk like you said....... you told yourself that tomorrow is a new day and your going to do better. Forgive yourself for whatever it is your telling yourself to make yourself feel bad. If someone else is saying something bad to you or about you..... tell them to go blow. You know your doing you best. Forgive yourself and start tomorrow.... you know it's a challenge, but you can do it!!!! You really can!!!!!!

    I hope things get better for you. Don't think about the crazy comments people make. They should be looking at themselves...........and no one should be judging except for GOD!!!!!!!!!!

    God bless you and keep on trying.......... YOU, ME and all the OTHERS here will do it with you!!!!!!!!
  • briblue72
    briblue72 Posts: 672 Member

    i dont want to go through 209 like this, and i am going to try to hop back on the plan tomorrow. i'm just down, frustrated and ashamed that i have let myself go again. i look in the mirror, and when 2 weeks ago, i was so proud of myself and my small accomplishments, today i feel regret, shame, hatred and guilt...

    You have to tell yourself you WILL hop back on the plan tomorrow. Give yourself the power to succeed!

    My parents came to visit this weekend and with Valentine's Day... It's been one huge meal after another. I figured I'd go ahead and enjoy it, but this morning I plunged right back into healthy eating. Fiber One cereal, fresh strawberries and blackberries, skim milk - mmmm where have you been all my life? I just felt gross last night with all of that nasty food lurking inside of me. I have a plumber coming to fix my tub today, but I WILL go to the gym. His visit will not be an excuse for me to skip another workout.

    You can do this! You have to do this! We're all here to look out for each other and build each other up. Good luck to you and you climb your way back to the top!:flowerforyou:
  • TamTastic
    TamTastic Posts: 19,224 Member
    I am sorry you are going through such a difficult time.

    Honestly, you need to just put yourself FIRST and forget about everyone else.

    I used to feel self conscious about being at the gym with all those "toned" bodies around me. I would feel like they were judging me.

    And one day, I thought "Hey, they can kiss my butt if they are. I have as much right to be here as anyone and if I want to GET toned, I need to do this!!"

    Once I started focusing on what I needed to do and made it MY job to get this done and didn't dwell on everyone around me anymore, I finally started to see results.

    The fact of the matter is, you are the only one that matters when it comes to your health. No one (not even an ignorant boss making thoughtless comments) is worth you not being healthy.

    Good luck!! :flowerforyou:
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