20lbs and counting but cant see it

You can do this for sure and hey i'm tired of being the fat friend too and will join you! I would like to lose at least 50 lbs by Jan 2019

Nice work with your first 20 lbs! By my math your pace is right at 1.667 lbs/week which is safe, healthy and reasonable sustainable.

Try not to get discouraged about not perceiving changes, these things take time and you see yourself everyday. Consider your loss as a percentage of your total weight; 20 lbs is <8% of your total weight. How much difference would you be able to tell between 9.2 oz and 10.0 oz of water in two unmarked glasses?

To directly address you're question of if you can hit 190 by 2/1/2019; assuming your current pace you would reach 190 on 2/22/2019. However, you could attempt to create a bigger deficit up to 2 lbs/week and you could potentially get to 190 by 2/1. Granted, that assumes linear loss (uncommon) and doesn't take into account the holiday season which can be difficult for some people to maintain.

Regarding your comment of "just done being fat", I'm unsure if you're aware that weighing 190lbs for your height would still be considered obese (in terms of BMI), so having your heart set on that scale number as equating to no longer feeling fat might leave you disappointed when you get there (not that losing 60+ lbs isn't a great accomplishment). BMI is far from a perfect metric but is usually at least an "OK" guide for most people; 180 lbs is the break point between "overweight" and "obese" categories, and 150 lbs is the line between "normal" and "overweight".

I'm similar to you, only 1" shorter though. My starting weight was 254.2 and my current weight is 233. I have taken much longer than you though. I started (this time around) Oct. 10th.

You have started an awesome journey, not just weight loss, but in learning to be good to yourself... I have learned close to 50 years old to look in the mirror and find 10 positive things for any one negative (now it’s my receding hairline, lol)... once you start taking care of yourself physically, the emotional well being starts to appear and prosper... I have no doubt that you got this

Don't get discouraged... you're doing great and you have to keep your focus and determination in check. Keep doing what you are doing... it is working for you as you are losing. Make sure to take progress pictures along the way, you'll be glad you did in the long run. Your goal is completely attainable. I lost more than 100 lbs in 8 months and 4 days and all I did was start eating healthier and with more appropriate portions, logging & weighing my food using MFP and moving more. That's it. I didn't do any special diets. I opted to change my lifestyle... I didn't delete carbs from my diet. I didn't remove all sugars. I wanted to lose my weight by doing what I could do the rest of my life. I wasn't going to give up sweets forever, so why do it for a short while. It truly is about moderation. I promise it is. You can do this!! You are doing this!! You've lost 20 lbs already and you should be proud of your progress!! Don't doubt yourself... Your mind can enable or disable you. You have to decide which one you allow.

20 pounds is fantastic. You should surely be seeing it in your clothes. You can tell in the picture.

I can see it!!!!
In your after picture, your face is very noticeably thinner.

Usually we can't see changes in ourselves month to month (that's normal) because we see ourselves everyday. Everyone else; the difference is obvious.

So congratulations on your success!

Definitely can see it. You are doing great. Love yourself!