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Hello All, My name is Kathy, I am soon to be 52 and I look forward to this birthday in particular. My husband died 4 years ago at the age of 51 so for some reason this birthday means a lot to me, he couldn't grow old so I am determined to do it for the both of us.

The last 4 years have been hell, as I am sure you can imagine, one minute I am a married woman to a wonderful man of nearly 25 years with two grown children and then suddenly I was a widow. What the???? Well let me tell you, I was taken into a tail spin of comfort foods and laying in my bed drowning my feelings and then telling everyone I'm fine! On the outside I hid it all but behind closed doors I would gorge myself with candy and food and deserts. It was the only thing that made me feel better. Well I am probably 40 pounds heavier than I was 4 years ago, two weeks ago my daughter finally approached me and said don't you think it's time to take care of you?

My beautiful daughter bought me a year of MFP and I haven't looked back, it was hard at first but it did motivate me to try and do something positive. For the first time in a long time I was excited about my birthday, I have been getting up in the mornings and working out and going to work and eating healthy. It feels good to focus on the good things that are ahead of me! So far I have lost 4 pounds and looking forward to what 52 has in store for me! This is my story, I get to write this book and I get to decide how it ends and I have every intention for it to be a happy ending!

To be continued...

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  • jennifer_417
    jennifer_417 Posts: 12,344 Member
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    So sorry for your loss. I'm glad you're taking the time to care for yourself. You've got this!
  • luaP852350
    luaP852350 Posts: 131 Member
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    As above, so sorry for your loss glad your turning a corner good luck on your quest 👍
  • blackcatfitness
    blackcatfitness Posts: 57 Member
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    So sorry for your loss. Having been with my boyfriend for 14 years, I couldn’t even imagine him
  • mkbrockman
    mkbrockman Posts: 28 Member
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    You matter and people love you
  • sarahuk71
    sarahuk71 Posts: 5 Member
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    So sorry for your loss hun .. Big hugs... You have got this and we are here to support you xxxx