Fell hard off the wagon

Perhaps take baby steps back on so you don't overdo it and accidentally lose your balance?

Often when people fall off the wagon, it's because they've chosen a wagon that's really tough to stay on.

Assuming your goal is weight loss, all you REALLY need to accomplish that is a calorie deficit. Other stuff can make a deficit easier, or make you healthier, but the deficit is all you need to lose weight.

So choose a slow rate of loss, and log accurately the foods you typically eat, in portions that stay within your calorie goal. After you get in that groove, then start learning from your log. Eat more of the foods that fill you up, eat less of the foods that leave you hungry or trigger over eating. Take a walk on your lunch break. Keep learning and tweaking. It's okay to take a week or two every few months and eat your maintenance calories instead of a deficit. Will that slow you down? Of course. But getting to your goal slowly is better than continually falling off the speeding wagon

You keep a food diary? Start one and never stop. Log everything, the good, the bad and the ugly. If you’re just starting a diary don’t get discouraged if it’s a pain in the neck at first, it gets easier. Use a food scale to crunch the numbers. It’s more accurate than measuring cups.

You’ll never be off the wagon or track or program again. The diary is a thing to do, the only way not to do it is quit. Don’t go to pieces if you go over your number. There are lots of ways to make mistakes. But the process is more important than the numbers for any particular day. Losing any significant amount and keeping it gone takes a lot of persistence. Good luck.