a little rambling, but I really need some support right now.

espinozAgal
espinozAgal Posts: 160 Member
edited October 1 in Motivation and Support
I'm no where near thin. I still have a lot of weight to lose... about 40 pounds. I have lost 45 so far. I am very strict about my calories and about how much of each food I eat. If I have a bite of anything, i'll find out the caloric value and log it, even if it's 15 calories. It's a little obsessive. Not so bad since it takes focus and dedication to get healthy and stay healthy...however, today for lunch I was making my husband and kiddos a frozen pizza (bad I know... they were hungry NOW), and I had a piece. 1/8 of the pizza. it was a small slice and I didn't think it would be a big deal. I even thought of not logging it. I thought to myself, "hey self... you;re doing great. it's no big deal, don't be such a tight *kitten* about every thing you eat" so here I am and I decide to log it, and HOLY CRAPPOLA!!! one tiny peice of pizza is over 200calories???? I know this wont put me over but I am so upset. I am so upset i am shaking and I want to throw up. I caught myself a minute ago and it scared me to be this upset over this one small thing!! My mind is saying, "you'll get on the scale tomorrow and have all that weight back on. " totally unrealsitic... i know.. but I can't get this disgust about myself to go away!!! UGH!!!
Any advice??? you can be blunt.. I don't shutter at any little thing said to me, so please... help.

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  • AEB_WV
    AEB_WV Posts: 323 Member
    I guess look before you eat? But really don't be so hard on yourself! You'r doing great and this won't make or break you.
  • chevy88grl
    chevy88grl Posts: 3,937 Member
    Don't be so hard on yourself! Honestly. Don't. Feeling guilt, remorse or berating yourself won't do you any good. You learned a lesson, right? You know that an 1/8th of a pizza is 200 calories - is it worth 200 calories? I'm guessing it isn't. Now you know. So much of this journey is simply learning - learning about foods, learning about your caloric needs, learning about your body in general.

    It isn't the end of the world and you'll do just fine. It was only an 1/8th of a the pizza - it wasn't an entire pizza!

    Log the pizza. Drink some water. Be careful the rest of the day and know that it was a lesson learned! You'll be just fine. I promise.

    Tomorrow is a new day!

    Remember that this isn't a diet, it is a lifestyle change.
  • gentlebreeze2
    gentlebreeze2 Posts: 450 Member
    It's hard to give up things you like, and only makes you want them more. Try experiementing and come up with a homemade version. I use a torilla for the crust,, bake it alone for 5-7 minutes. Then put toppings on I like, and a small amount of cheese. Calories are less, its tasty, lower in sodium and you can have more than one slice.

    I do spiniach, chicken, mushrooms, olives, sauce and cheese. Turns out great.
  • nygiantschick
    nygiantschick Posts: 289 Member
    i think you need to chill....if this is not going to set you over your calories and you are otherwise on your program with no problem then you may be making a bigger deal out of this than necessary because that is not a healthy reaction to an 1/8 of a pizza. So relax...enjoy the pizza, exercise if you have to (it should not take much to burn 200 calories). Also, drink plenty of water since pizza has quite a bit of sodium.
  • ajbeans
    ajbeans Posts: 2,857 Member
    It takes 3500 calories to make one pound. 200 calories is less than 1/18 of a pound. It's not a big deal. 200 calories is nothing.

    You can't reasonably expect to never eat pizza again for the rest of your life. You just have to learn how to balance that pizza out with other, healthier choices. GOOD FOR YOU for eating only one slice! That's awesome! Now have a salad and some healthy snacks and and a good dinner, and try to stay near your calorie goal for the day. Even if you go slightly over, it's really not a big deal. Really.
  • dragonbug300
    dragonbug300 Posts: 760 Member
    Part of the struggle of weight maintenance and loss is that people tend to way under-estimate what they're eating. You're not alone in thinking something is far fewer calories... I'm still struggling to convince my mother that a giant bowl of spaghetti is closer to 400 calories than 100. I imagine when she figures it out, it'll be a horror-inducing moment for her as well.
    I remember when I bought a medium-sized/small-ish bag of chex mix. I ate the whole thing, looked at the nutrition... 160 cals per serving and FOUR SERVINGS PER BAG.

    It's okay. The more you learn, the easier it is to make smart choices. Swap a 200-calorie turkey sandwich with lettuce, tomato, and avocado for the pizza and you'll be thinking "Really? Only 200?"
  • PaulaJKelly
    PaulaJKelly Posts: 96
    Forgive yourself, document it in your diary, in the comment area try and document why you ate it - it looked good, you were bored, you were angry, tired, just wanted it, whatever it is, and move on. The rest of the day is here to make good food choices, exercise some. Move on. I do realize how hard it is as I can get quite obessessive on weighing myself several times a day. I have reached my goal and have lost additional weight. Sometimes I feel that is the only thing I am doing well. Whatever you do, don't throw it up or you set yourself up for thinking that is o.k. You don't want to go down the bulimia trail. Tomorrow is another day. I ate two pieces of pizza the other day and actually weighed a little less the next day. Your body will regroup. Try not to be so hard on yourself. I realize that it is difficult but you can and will do it. You have loss 45 pounds. That is a tremendous victory. Go play with your family and enjoy the rest of the day. You can get past this trial.
  • espinozAgal
    espinozAgal Posts: 160 Member
    yes.. i need to chill. this actually made me laugh! sounds like something my best friend would say to me!! :)
    Thanks ladies
  • bcattoes
    bcattoes Posts: 17,299 Member
    It's easy to get obsessive about something new that is working for you. You start thinking "Wow, I can really do this" but you're afraid to veer from the plan even a little lest you blow the whole thing. I am the same way about exercising. My husband and I are on a team that has a match every Monday during the season so I always take that night off of exercise because I have no choice. But in the off season it really bothers me to take a night off for no other reason than to have a night off. I really think if my husband weren't here to keep me from it I'd never take a day off. I'm so afraid that if I take one off, then it will turn to 2, then 3, then not exercising at all.

    Sorry, I think I just added my own rant without really offering much advice. Does empathy help at all?
  • atomdraco
    atomdraco Posts: 1,083 Member
    Just glanced your diary quickly:

    1. today even with 200+ pizza at lunch (that's all you ate), you are still pretty low for a lunch. You can still fit in some fresh vegi
    2. glance back at your diary, you don't seems even eating very basic 1200 minimal net calories, even I think the 1200 setting might be lower than what you should be eating
    3. it's ok to enjoy food that you like, just portion size. Give yourself a break once a week or something similar. It will help long run because you will not be doing this restricted diet thing forever. Try to transfer it to a healthy lifestyle and find a way to stick to it long term
    4. if you are really feel bad about eating more calories for a meal (what you have so far, nothing came close to it), just go workout to earn some calories, so you can make it up or earn more calories to eat.

    So:
    1. Eat your minimal net at least
    2. Eat your exercises calories back
    3. Enjoy your journey

    2. Eat your exercises
  • ladysandy
    ladysandy Posts: 82
    yup I agree with above, you can eat almost anything with moderation! So sit back, relax and have a heathly snack, that'll cheer you up! :wink:
  • Mommyof3loves
    Mommyof3loves Posts: 276
    Yeah I believe that it would be over 200 calories. And I wouldn't worry so much about it especially since you are so strict and you're right it won't kill you or your weight loss. But you now know and I highly doubt you'll do it again. Remember also you can indulge every now and again. Try not to be so hard on yourself :-)
  • LaSweetMini
    LaSweetMini Posts: 157 Member
    awwww honey. I know exactly what you are going through. I went through that last night. I am obsessed and dedicated with this here weigh loss. I did worst than you. I had 3 slices of regular pizzaria pizza last night. I still had 400 something calories left but each slice was 260 something. I felt like a failure and like crap but this morning I felt like nothing even happend. I got up early, went for my power walk, made a super light breakfast and all was well. I guess we have to expect to have moment where we will eat real food that will be ridiculously high in calories but think about when we didnt give a crap about calories and how bad we where doing then! It wont undo our progress! So relax! Im sure it was good because let me tell you, my pizza was heaven!!!! lol Hope you feel better and dont stress, keep it light for the rest of the day. Also you can log it before you eat it. I did and I saw that I still had left over calories and so I went ahead and indulged.
  • av8rblond
    av8rblond Posts: 140
    I feel the same way as you did in your blog...I am getting freakish about this as well. I. like you, have to learn to chill. I totally understand your repulsion at yourself though. Know that I am hard on myself like you are so you are not the only one that is having a hard time not getting wrapped up in the details.

    I have to remind myself that I only get one shot at life and I have to enjoy all of it...the hills and the valleys...like you say..just keep swimming...

    A.
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