Starting Again

I feel like someone who fell off the wagon in November and December. Every carbohydrate that haven't had for the last three years found me. I could blame it on stress, family terminal cancer, friend suicide, work conflict dynamics. personal chronic health and pain issues, death of two pets, cold weather, the end of physical rehabilitation term, closing of facility w/accessible heated pool,etc. The real deal is that I slowly and with progressive speed made progressive poor nutrition choices and didn't try for physical activity. I am ready to start over and know I can't do it alone to lose 100+