100th times the charm?

Hi y’all,
Just wanted to take a moment to officially say hi. I’ve been a member of MFP on and off for YEARS.
I’m currently 27 years old, and have had a horrible relationship with my weight and diet for as long as I can remember. At the start of high school I was already 200lbs. At graduation, 255. And now 10 years later I sit at an insanely uncomfortable 270.
In 2011/2012 I had lost 60+lbs and it was the happiest I had been in a long time. Unfortunately I gained it all back and then some. But now I’m officially ready to lose it all for good.
Last month I tried a personal trainer at my gym. Absolutely hated it and my anxiety got the best of me and stopped going to the sessions I pre paid for 🤦🏼‍♀️unfortunately it’s just not for me. Anyone else like this? 😫

I’m hoping to meet some great people here for support and friendship and to bounce ideas and thoughts off one another, and have never been more motivated to lose weight.