A safe place! (Hopefully)

katieAguilar
katieAguilar Posts: 2 Member
in Motivation and Support
Hey guys, so I've been battling with anxiety/depression on my own for some time now and I've never felt so alone. I don't have the courage to talk to my family about it and add anymore problems to their plate. I also have an eating disorder that has COMPLETELY taken over my life. I feel like I have no control and it consumes me(pun intended). This is really just a chat for people to put out all their problems and have a venting opportunity that I don't feel we all get but definitely deserve. So whether you just write it out and leave or stay and discuss helpful tips IDC. If this gets to one person I'll be happy. Even having the courage to FINALLY write this out and put it out in the world has giving me and proved that I'm stronger than I think. Honestly, I started this bc I was just about to do some regretful things but writing this out helped me take a moment and ask if I really wanted to do it. Now I'm gonna put on some workout clothes that make me feel good and try an do a little something positive instead of taking 3 steps back imma jump forward. Be back for an update.😜👌

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  • zac296caz
    zac296caz Posts: 8 Member
    Hey Katie! You are strong to open up to the community, I congratulate you on taking the steps to improve your health. I have GAD, and I completely relate to the feeling of having no control. I currently am struggling in my college classes and had to quit my job because I was not handling my priorities right. My employer didn't understand, but I learned now...make sure to check that I have a disability lol, otherwise they can't do anything. I'm taking the steps to get back to something I can handle. I feel just better admitting that I am struggling. I only told a few people. My friend circle is very limited, and my cousins are super religious and not exactly comfortable talking with me. Having a mental disability sucks, some people don't understand that it doesn't just go away with prayers or wishful thinking. I finally got back into therapy and am trying to better work through things. I have kept up my working out and diet for the past few years, and I am happy it is a small comfort that I have control over it.

    If you need someone to talk to reach out, like I got help from my family after I moved back in with them. My relationship with them has been a lot better because they seen that my years of arguing and life issues comes from a thing in my brain that I can't control without outside help or medicine. My anxiety was really bad that I kept missing work when I lived on my own. They are supporting me now until I get back on my feet. I know enough people who are living independently with my disorder, so it gives me hope. I also learned I'm not alone. I have at least one friend, my close family and my bf and his mom who I can call when I have trouble. This pushes me to not give up on school or finding independence.

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