Self-Control NSV

So I had my day all planned out. Perfectly balanced meals, plenty of protein, and under my calorie goal. I got to work and my boss brought cookies. I decided I would have one. Ate it, then checked the nutrition label. 240 whole calories! Damn. Well this wasn't much of a big deal, because my day was pretty low anyway. This brought me to a total of 1240 calories. For someone with a history of ed's, going over is kind of scary. I freaked out.

So what did I do? Yelled at myself horribly for being such a failure, and decided that since I already screwed everything up, I might as well go on a total binge. Thought about that ice cream cone, chicken nuggets, and cheeseburger I wanted from McDonalds. Got in my car, drove all the way there, sat in the drive-thru and verbally abused myself a little more...

Then drove away. 40 calories isn't worth it! It was one cookie. Not that big of a deal. Not at all. Went back to work, ate my planned meal, cut out one small snack I was going to have later, and now I'm back under.

So for all of those that battle the Binge-Demon, you know what a big deal this is! I did it for you, too. We CAN overcome it! Binging willl not control our lives. We are so much stronger than that.

I promise, if I can do it, you can do it too.

-Hush.