Relationships, fitness, and life

sometimes I wonder, is going after what you want really worth it? We all have goals in life and for many years I gave mine up fir others. It seemed to make others happen. Then when a tragedy happens, having to hold a baby on the day he's born weighing 1lb 12oz and 11 inches long, and having to to say good bye, looking at those ten perfect fingers and toes, wondering why? Why can't he stay? Looking into his gorgeous face and eyes having to say goodbye, a mothers worst nightmare? You'd think it, a worst nightmare is having to do it again 23 days later with his twin brother! As a mother I should have been able to do something, fix it, make it better! Total and utter breath sucked from your life! Does it get better? No, having to dress them and prepare them at the funeral home, holding and kissing them, saying yet another goodbye by myself! am I resentful, hurt and lost? Yes still, yet I try to move on in life, doing some things for myself. However, having no patience and blaming me for things doesn't help! I need patience and understanding! I need support.

Starting a new journey with a life of fitness, telling me I can't do it... Is the last thing I need! I think
Many of you will get the lack of support end of this and I'm truly sorry! We should all be supported in the things we wish to do, and be given the patience and understanding when we seem most unlovable! A valuable lesson we should all remember!

Thanks fir listening everytone!
Michelle

xx Love ya tons....Here for you always :flowerforyou:

Know that all of your FRIENDS on here love and support you know matter what xxx

I'm here for you. Don't give up... keep those goals, reach those goals!! I'm here right beside you!!

xoxoxo

My heart hurt for you as I read your story. My prayers are that you find confort and love in the arms of Jesus and know you are loved beyond messure.

praying that you get peace and strength through this.

Even at the ripe old age of 27, no 34, no 40 and that is my final offer....I cannot begin to fathom what you are and have been through. I have lost my parents and siblings, but not a child. I know the hurt that came with those losses and pray that God gives me the strength to carry on if that tragedy ever befalls me. Keep on holding on Michelle, and look for comfort in knowing that your angels are always interceding for you.

Always,
E.

Michelle,

I am so truly sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what that is like and to be honest I hope I never have to experience that depth of pain. It is really difficult to understand the reasons as to why certain things happen and we can live our whole life trying to figure it out and never really get the answers we are looking for. The only thing I guess we can do is to live life to the fullest and embrace each moment and everyone around us. There will always be people who are unsupportive and those who just simply do not understand and as difficult as it is to break away from those types of people. sometimes its necessary to at least limit exposure to them when possible. Making a lifestyle change is difficult in itself but going through personal tragedy makes it nearly impossible to stay on track. Michelle, I have seen some of the workouts you have posted and you ARE doing amazing and you have alot of people who really want you to succeed. In my opinion ( and this is just my opinion) I find the ones that are unsupportive are usually the ones that are not doing anything productive with their own life so they try to drag others down with them. They make the choice to to not support you but you can also make the choice to NOT let it stop you from going after what you want. NO ONE has the right to make you feel selfish or bad for wanting to make changes to your life. Your goals are YOURS and no one can take them away from you unless you give them the power. You are STRONG and you CAN continue to be the person you want to be, you just need to believe in yourself. Trust yourself to know what is right for YOU and give yourself the permission to pursue the things that will make you happy. This is your life Michelle and you need to live it. You have been through an extremely painful ordeal and its every parents nightmare. There was nothing you could have done. Your babies will forever be in your heart and you need to release yourself from the guilt you feel in order to move on.

You have many people in your corner.. including me

You CAN do anything you set your mind to. Never forget that!

I seriously want to wrap my arms around you, hug you and cry with you right now! :sad:

Your the best Michelle. Glad we are friends!:flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:

My heart breaks for you and your loss.

I truly hope you receive the support you need and accomplish any goals you set out to do.