calorie intake = anxiety!

I had to stop logging my intake because it was too triggering for me. Maybe you should stop logging your intake for a while if you're afraid of slipping back into anorexia and bulimia.

No doctor here, but for me, no weight problems would warrant the conditions you mentioned. Weight management is a way of taking control, not losing it.

If you feel as if you are losing control in that fashion, definitely seek some professional help. You have done well over the past year and you know you don't want to go back there. Think about your child to and the example you want to set for him/her. You know the struggles you have had & you definitely don't want your child to go through it. I know.....he/she is just a baby right now, but now is the time to work on you before it will make an impact on your precious little one. Hugs to you & I'm praying for you.:flowerforyou:

Think of it this way and maybe it will help (it's what helped me quit freaking out like this):

When you are anxious/stressed, your body produces cortisol which triggers your body to store fat. So if you are stressed all the time, it doesn't matter how well you eat, your body will still hold on to fat for dear life. Take a deep breath, eat something healthy and filling and try not to stress. Also, get plenty of sleep.

And if you ever need someone to talk to, just let one of us know! If you treat your body well, it will treat you well back

For me, working on weight loss is multifaceted. I cannot look at this journey from just the perspective of calories and exercise. I needed to answer the question of why I am overweight in the first place and the answer was more emotional than will power. I needed to address my emotional needs through therapy, friends and family. I had to open up, give up control and rely on others. This process for me took about a year before I felt ready to have an effective weight loss journey. All the other times that I tried to lose weight without addressing my emotional needs, I would end up gaining more weight in the end. Take some time to think deeply about what could be causing your anxiety and eating issues. Reach out for help to your support network. Many therapists take insurance or will bill you on a sliding scale. I sought one that had expertise in eating issues. My main catalyst to start working on me was the birth of my daughter. When I get discouraged, I think about being a good example for her and what I want her life to be and that propels me forward. Good luck.