Anxious for a new ME!!

Hello everyone, I'm 28, mother of four boys and since my marriage in February, I've gained over 20 pounds and have realized I'm my biggest ever!! Don't want to look at myself anymore and say "What happened?" I want to be able to look and say "Wow! Keep it up, your looking good!!". Doing it not only for myself, but for my children and husband as well. Need lots of motivation and hope to find that connection with others that need motivation from ME!!! I know we can do this, dont give up guys!!!