Feeling shaky about this

kittycatisnotfat
kittycatisnotfat Posts: 1
edited October 3 in Introduce Yourself
Over a year ago I joined and over 3 months I lost 21 pounds. Which was only 1/4 ish of my goal. I gained it all back and probably more. I've just settled on being a fat person all of my life. And then something in me moments ago made me think how sick I am of it. Not just feeling uncomfortable in clothes, around people, but just feeling like I am a waste of space. I couldn't log in to my old account, and maybe it's better that way. I think I will try to walk again, just a little, adjust my eating, see what happens. But truthfully I am not confident I won't wake up tomorrow and tell myself how bad I feel and how pointless it is to try again. I'm wondering if not weighing myself for the first few months would be stupid? I can't face that, I feel it on me, I feel how much I gained. I don't need the number to make it worse. I feel like it'll make me even further depressed. Anyway, I hope someone else is having a better time! I had a great time with my last account and friends, and I think this time I have to bring my family and friends into it, or else I can't ever stick to it.

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  • kivrinangel
    kivrinangel Posts: 24
    I know exactly how you feel and have been there. For years. But I started on this just under two weeks ago and am surprised at how I've adjusted to it. Now I'm determined. And trust me, at nearly 100 pounds to lose, determination is the #1 ingredient I will have to have.

    I would love to talk to you about this. If you send me a message with your yahoo IM name, I would be glad to contact you. Or if you're more comfortable sending emails here, that would be fine too. Just remember that there's a whole community here to help you through the hard times.

    Robin
  • bstamps12
    bstamps12 Posts: 1,184
    You can do it. There are tons of people on MFP who have had the mindset you described but have lost TONS of weight. You are not a waste of space, never let yourself think that! Get on the scale now to set your starting weight and maybe only weigh in once a week or twice per month, then you are seeing pounds dropped at every weigh in and it will help keep you motivated! Join one of the groups on the Motivation & Support Board, someone in a similar situation to you can be your accountability person on here. Set some goals: walk a 5K, get a new pair of shoes when you lose x pounds, etc. You can do it!!
  • JoLeeFA
    JoLeeFA Posts: 211 Member
    well first off - congrats for making th emove to rejoin!!

    I did the same thing, except my account was still active. I had gotten down 40, just to gain 43 back. I am back on my way!
    Hold your head up. We are worth the effort to get healthy. Take small steps!
  • janinab75
    janinab75 Posts: 147 Member
    I joined WW almost 8 years ago for the first time, It was the heaviest I had ever been. I lost 35lbs, it was great! But short lived. I gained it ALL back plus 10. 12/28/10 I was the heaviest I had ever been. I decided enough was enough and started WW on-line. I lost 20 lbs, then just stopped for 2 months. I got tired of the WW thing I guess and lost my motivation. In the last 2 months I gained back 6 lbs and was not ready to feel fat, bloated, out of place, etc. I started MFP last week and am feeling great about it. I love the support, the food tracker, the data base, etc. I think I can make it stick this time. I found exercise partners and am really motivated to make it stick. Seeing everyone else's success is a great motivator too. If they can do it, you can do it, I can do it, WE can do it!!
  • Deberlin88
    Deberlin88 Posts: 70 Member
    If you think weighing yourself would hinder your progress, then absolutely do not weigh yourself. :) Instead, go by how you feel and how your measurements change. Go by how your clothes will start to feel looser and how much more energy you will have. Trust that you are not a waste of space. You are a beautiful person worthy of the love and support you will receive. Best of luck on your journey!
  • janinab75
    janinab75 Posts: 147 Member
    You can do it. There are tons of people on MFP who have had the mindset you described but have lost TONS of weight. You are not a waste of space, never let yourself think that! Get on the scale now to set your starting weight and maybe only weigh in once a week or twice per month, then you are seeing pounds dropped at every weigh in and it will help keep you motivated! Join one of the groups on the Motivation & Support Board, someone in a similar situation to you can be your accountability person on here. Set some goals: walk a 5K, get a new pair of shoes when you lose x pounds, etc. You can do it!!

    Setting small goals is a GREAT idea! I exercise better and more regularly when I have a goal. I just signed up for a 5K at the end of October. I have never been a runner, but here I go! Find a walk or short run in your area and exercise towards theat, then find another one and keep going.
  • Bonny272
    Bonny272 Posts: 154 Member
    You can do this. You just have to see this as a rest of your life thing not a diet. Doing something healthy for yourself is always worth it. You have to keep logging in no matter what. Even if you realy blow it you have to keep trying.
  • gods_gal
    gods_gal Posts: 301
    I think what you are doing is making agreements with yourself that you are not worth doing this for yourself. I think one good step would be to start saying positive things to yourself and break the old agreement you had about not being confident, how pointless it is to try, etc. I think I can recognize this because this was the old me. I've only lost 30+ pounds but I feel so much better about myself and am so confident that I can go all the way now. Here are some things that have worked for me and maybe they'll work for you too.
    1. Move every day. When I started I couldn't make it around my 1/2 mile block. I had to cut through the back door neighbor's yard to get home. Today I've walked 2.9 miles (in two different walks) and could have gone farther if my back hadn't been hurting so bad. No matter how far you can go, at least do some walking or another form of exercise. The endorphins that exercise releases really do make you feel better about yourself.
    2. I log every bite I eat. This has helped me to stay below the calories I'm supposed to have. Sometimes I go over, but usually I don't and it's paying off. My diary is open and my friends sometimes comment about what I have had and I find that incredibly helpful.
    3. Find a great support system. I have made so many great friends here at MFP. I truly believe if I had not found this site I would not have been as successful as I have been. I also have friends and family that are on this same journey and it's so encouraging.
    4. I have gone on a "trip" to my past to try to figure out the whys of my overeating. God has been faithful to help show me areas in my life where I have stuffed my emotions down to not deal with situations or circumstances. I have been able to go back to my past and forgive my father for leaving the family when I was four years old. He's not alive anymore, but I forgave him in my heart and this helped lead me to even more areas of shame in my past that I believe caused me to overeat and abuse food. This is still an on-going journey and I hope to learn even more about why I am (or was) addicted to food.
    5. I believe in myself. I know that I am worth this fight to get a healthy body. I am not saying this out of pride, but just realizing that God has made me to be more than a couch potato. There is a purpose to my life now.
    I really hope that you are able to focus on your goals, on why you want to do this, and be able to reach your goals. I know you can do this! You are worth it! :heart:
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