Day 3 - hopeful but still have doubts

mamalula
mamalula Posts: 42
edited October 3 in Motivation and Support
This is my 3rd day on MFP and I really want to do this but I am still afraid to fail because I always have. I am keeping track of my food intake with the diary and have exercised for the past 3 days so I know I can fit it into my life. I try to imagine how good it will feel when I lose weight and imagine what I will look like but my brain goes kind of fuzzy, like I just don't believe it could happen. Anyway that is something I need to deal with.
I think that people are judging me thinking that you must eat burgers and pizzas all day long to look like that. But bc (before children) I used to work as a chef and cooked with seasonal, local, organic products and I try to feed my family with the same ethos. But I guess eating organic butter or sugar doesn't make it any less fattening!
The thing is I feel like I know all the theory how to lose weight all the diets, all the exercise, every method to achieve weight loss and I still can't do it. For me as well it is definately an emotional thing, I can see all the negative things that I experienced as a child that might have made me want to overeat, I have read every book under the sun about emotional eating, but still I can't seem to change. I just don't know what it will take for me to stop, maybe this website...who knows? I hope so.
So that is where I am at right now, hopeful and sceptical.

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  • 519harley
    519harley Posts: 241 Member
    I'm sure that by the end of your start week that you will have seen some sort of loss. Hang in there it will happen this time. :-)
  • becktoriatralala
    becktoriatralala Posts: 106 Member
    Just start simple - record everything you put in your body; this may help you see trends. I for one was AMAZED at some of the calorie content of things I ate. I also noticed I wasn't drinking enough water. These two things have helped me immensely. I still eat whatever the heck I want, but its makeing me make better choices. Some days I go over (like WAY over) my calories. So what, I get back on it the next day. I too eat emotionally...I am a super stressed out teacher. I may not have children yet, but I have 140 7th graders I am responsible for every day. I have PolyCystic Ovarian Syndrome and haven't had a period in two years. Why am I sharing this with you? Because I was starting to get so depressed that my body would never function enough to have a child. With in the first 10 pounds I lost, I started my first real, unassisted by birth control period since I was 19 ( I am 30 now). These little changes have become bigger changes as the days go on. Seeing the graph of pounds lost is motivating. I crave exercise, water, and raw almonds now!

    Take this message to you however you want. I am happier with myself than I have been in a long time. And its is because of MFP helping! Good luck to you! Be patient and hopeful! I hope my story helps! :)
  • MamaBear57
    MamaBear57 Posts: 336 Member
    Fighting yourself will be the biggest battle but you can do it. Just push through the doubt and when you feel down get up and do something. I started retraining my thoughts of self hate about 6 months ago (prior to this life change and MFP) and when I catch myself saying how bad I am I would make myself stop. Then go to a mirror and say 3 to 5 things good about myself. If time permitted I would then do a small workout or do something nice for myself. As time went on I found that I beat myself up less and less. Actually I just realized I am beating myself up less as I type this. :)

    Good luck and coming here is a great first step in finding a healthier way to live.
  • vitacat
    vitacat Posts: 81 Member
    You really can do this! I used to start a diet on a Monday and lose it by Wednesday. I've logged on to MFP every day for over 6 months. The weight loss is slower now but still steady, I never dreamed 6 months ago I would still be here. I've made some good friends and had a laugh along the way and I've learned that you can have a bad day or take a few days out , everyone else has bad days, slip ups and doubts too! Good luck with your journey :flowerforyou:
  • mamalula
    mamalula Posts: 42
    Hi thank you so much your story is truely inspiring
  • tracywertz
    tracywertz Posts: 1
    Your words could be my words - I have so much head knowledge about weight loss and nutrition, but something keeps holding me back. I am REALLY hoping this program works for me as well. We can do this - our families need us :)
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