New and starved for support!

Nobody really knows that I'm doing this and I just started today. My name is Beck and I'm very much overweight. I used to have an eating disorder and so lots of people around me are a bit too supportive of loving my body the way it is and avoiding dieting. They don't think I can do it without falling back into my dangerous ways. I know these people love me of course and they want me to be happy and healthy. They just don't realize that I've created an addiction to food on the way to being healthy! It's been a long time since my last big relapse and I'd just love to be healthy.

I want to have the body I deserve and start living my life while I'm still young and can still start over. I have to lose this weight now and I need some help to do that!

If anybody has either just started, just made their first goal, or lost some crazy awesome weight and has some advice for me or inspiring words I'd love to hear them. Even more than that I kind of need a bit of a mentor..To remind me of what I want, hold me responsible, and help me out. A pen pal kind of thing if anybody would want to do that! If not thats okay too! Anything helps to be honest.

Thanks so much for listening. I'm so tired of being held back by this weight.