OBSESSED

annabananana
annabananana Posts: 26
edited October 4 in Introduce Yourself
hey there, does anyone else find it hard to balance their thoughts about losing weight? i am obsessed, and it takes over my every thought. yes, i do have obsessive compulsive disorder and borderline eating disordered, but this is ruining my life. i can never be happy because all i think about is losing weight and being skinny.

i hope this is an appropriate message board post...i've tried everything. counseling, not logging calories on this app (yet i still would on paper or in my head, i couldn't help it), just anything. maybe some of you can relate. i promise i'm not crazy or anything. but my need to be thin is ridiculous and it causes me so much depression.

no, i am not super skinny, and i do mess up sometimes. if i eat something bad, it ruins my whole day unless i burn it all off plus more in exercise. anyone have advice/want to help? i don't want to sound desperate...but i guess i kind of am.

thanks,

-anna, 18 y.o. freshman in college

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  • barbiex3
    barbiex3 Posts: 1,036 Member
    yeah. i hear ya. maybe find more things to do with your time...
  • KrzyRiver
    KrzyRiver Posts: 29 Member
    I can definitely relate. Weight loss takes over pretty much all my thoughts lately. I even had a small struggle with bulimia because of it. I couldn't eat *anything* without feeling guilty. I've more or less been able to kick that awful habit before it became a problem (although I still think about throwing up sometimes), but I still can't think of anything but the numbers on the scale...
  • sarah307
    sarah307 Posts: 1,363 Member
    i feel like i am in the exact same boat as you :) so you are not alone - repeat.. NOT ALONE IN THIS..

    I have addiction issues, borderline personality, bipolar disorder, and anxiety/depression.. all of these things make me 1. go in excess with exercise and counting 2. really sad b/c I cannot control what my mind is doing ...

    I have been going to counseling since I was 13 years old and it has taken 6 different counselors for me to find the "right" one which I have had for the past year and a half !!

    I think the biggest thing is because aware of what you are doing and you ARE being aware and you have taken steps to help yourself. You got this :)

    But I know what you mean about obsessions taking control of yourself, and ultimately it's usually us trying to control something to 1. avoid other problems or 2. feel like we are in control by obsessions b/c other parts of our lives are "disordered"

    message me if you want :)

    edit:
    wanted to add that I go to counseling for those other things and other problems in my life (from addictions and bipolar) but haven't necessarily been focusing on that lately. just wanted to add that so you didn't think you were as crazy as me ;);)
  • Jessicaruby
    Jessicaruby Posts: 881 Member
    i can so relate. i have had bouts with eating disorders and i am also OCD. this sometimes consumes my life. i was irritation people i love around me because i would talk about calories, being fat, food, exercise all the time. i have learned to not talk about it so much but it is always a constinat thought in my head...............i just try to focus on eating healthy and have recently picked up the goal of bodybuilding
  • domiunica01
    domiunica01 Posts: 6
    I feel the same exact way.. Everything I think/talk about is food and excersing :(
  • sarah307
    sarah307 Posts: 1,363 Member
    this needs to be the official obsessions support thread :)
  • annabananana
    annabananana Posts: 26
    sounds like a great idea :) so glad we all have each other for support!
  • sarah307
    sarah307 Posts: 1,363 Member
    sounds like a great idea :) so glad we all have each other for support!

    me too :)
  • dknowsbest
    dknowsbest Posts: 27 Member
    hey there, does anyone else find it hard to balance their thoughts about losing weight? i am obsessed, and it takes over my every thought. yes, i do have obsessive compulsive disorder and borderline eating disordered, but this is ruining my life. i can never be happy because all i think about is losing weight and being skinny.

    i hope this is an appropriate message board post...i've tried everything. counseling, not logging calories on this app (yet i still would on paper or in my head, i couldn't help it), just anything. maybe some of you can relate. i promise i'm not crazy or anything. but my need to be thin is ridiculous and it causes me so much depression.

    no, i am not super skinny, and i do mess up sometimes. if i eat something bad, it ruins my whole day unless i burn it all off plus more in exercise. anyone have advice/want to help? i don't want to sound desperate...but i guess i kind of am.

    thanks,

    -anna, 18 y.o. freshman in college

    anna - i know you said you've gone to counseling before, but maybe you would benefit if you tried again except with a different counselor. maybe one who specializes in OCD and eating disorders? they might be able to offer you other outlets to direct your focus on.
  • love22step
    love22step Posts: 1,103 Member
    I've been rather obsessed with losing weight since I joined the site. I'm just so excited about it! I probably talk about it too much, but I'm still doing a lot of other things and not letting it take over my life. Until you can find the help you need, I think it's a good idea to force yourself to concentrate on other projects at hand, like school work and friends, maybe. Try some volunteer work--it can divert your thoughts and make you feel good about yourself. Good luck!
  • sarah307
    sarah307 Posts: 1,363 Member
    hey there, does anyone else find it hard to balance their thoughts about losing weight? i am obsessed, and it takes over my every thought. yes, i do have obsessive compulsive disorder and borderline eating disordered, but this is ruining my life. i can never be happy because all i think about is losing weight and being skinny.

    i hope this is an appropriate message board post...i've tried everything. counseling, not logging calories on this app (yet i still would on paper or in my head, i couldn't help it), just anything. maybe some of you can relate. i promise i'm not crazy or anything. but my need to be thin is ridiculous and it causes me so much depression.

    no, i am not super skinny, and i do mess up sometimes. if i eat something bad, it ruins my whole day unless i burn it all off plus more in exercise. anyone have advice/want to help? i don't want to sound desperate...but i guess i kind of am.

    thanks,

    -anna, 18 y.o. freshman in college

    anna - i know you said you've gone to counseling before, but maybe you would benefit if you tried again except with a different counselor. maybe one who specializes in OCD and eating disorders? they might be able to offer you other outlets to direct your focus on.

    right on :) i sent her a message that said pretty much this! cause i agree !
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