Trying to find my fit

Liluth
Liluth Posts: 84 Member
edited October 4 in Introduce Yourself
I'm Erin, 23, soon to be college graduate with a degree in psychology.

When I was 19 I was also 295 pounds at five feet five inches. I couldn't imagine life at 300 and I didn't want to. I'd of course tried every diet, exercised until I thought I'd cough up a lung and was about as miserable as I could be. I was deeply depressed, I didn't want to live anymore if my current state would be my future. Then I heard about the lap band procedure. Some may view it as a cop out and maybe it is. But I did what I had to do to save my life. If the fat wasn't going to kill me, I was prepared to do it myself.

November of 2010 I was at my lowest weight I'd ever achieved in my adult life, 169 lbs. Then, suddenly, I couldn't keep anything down, not sickness, but possible band malfunction. My doctor emptied the band completely and made sure everything was fine. It was. It was like my body was rebelling at the thinner new me.

Today I'm 200lbs on the nose and for a while I hated myself for gaining back some of the weight. Maybe I still do. That 2 terrifies me. I never want to be that close to 300 pounds ever again.

I'm here because I can't fit into some of my clothing. I only have one pair of jeans left that fit. I'm here because this weight gain is making me miserable all over again and I need to get back some control.

I hope, through keeping a journal of my food, holding myself accountable again, I can lose the weight plus more and reach my goal of 140 pounds. If you've read all this, I thank you for "listening" and wish you all the luck in the world meeting your own goals in life.

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  • nilesbollinger
    nilesbollinger Posts: 80 Member
    You can do this! There are lots of people here to support you. Feel free to add me as a friend.

    -Niles
  • lolainlondon
    lolainlondon Posts: 160 Member
    Good luck Erin! I'm sure with the help of MFP and the lovely people on this forum you'll hit your goals!!
  • vim_n_vigor
    vim_n_vigor Posts: 4,089 Member
    Best of luck. Search through the forums. There are plenty of people here who have had the lap band - with varying sucess, that could help support you and understand some of the problems you have had.
  • JaredBergeron
    JaredBergeron Posts: 379 Member
    Welcome to the site, we are all here to help each other!
  • Jean410
    Jean410 Posts: 104
    Good luck! There are so many inspiring stories on here about people much heavier than you that have lost the weight. Please don't loath yourself because of your weight. You're not 300lbs. You're 200. And maybe if you set yourself some mini goals instead of thinking of it as this HUGE number you need to lose it wont seem so overwhelming. Love yourself right now where you are and you'll be even happier with each little bit of progress.

    Hang in there! You can do this. :flowerforyou:
  • SPheonix22
    SPheonix22 Posts: 90 Member
    . It is trouble and I also know it's not just what you eat but exercise too, to keep up your metabolism. No matter how little you eat your body will adjust. Its smarter than you.
  • tinamina78
    tinamina78 Posts: 241 Member
    Welcome!! You've come to the right place. We are all here to help each other. You can do it! Never give up!
  • Shelby814
    Shelby814 Posts: 273 Member
    You can do this. I know it's cliche', but it really does have to be a lifestyle change vs a diet. I am 14 years post bariatric surgery as well (Roux-en-y), & my weight did creep up by 50# plus over the years. With the help of MYP & all of the great people here, I weigh less than I ever have post surgery. Slow & steady wins the race. Add me if you'd like. :)
  • Liluth
    Liluth Posts: 84 Member
    What a warm welcome! Thank you everyone for the encouragement. It's wonderful to feel like I have partners in crime in this whole weight loss business!
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