Getting back on track

I'm writing this post for two reasons. First I have to acknowledge that I did get off track and secondly, to point out the reasons why I gained some of those pesky pounds again (so that I can also help others who are in the same situation and is in the brink of slipping into food addiction, again)

It all started with me being busy with my thesis. I had to spend a lot of my time in cafes eating all the wrong foods and not spending any time exercising. Then I gained myself a boyfriend, who I love with all me heart, but is a really really sulky diet partner! He actually enjoys squeezing my flabby arms and watching me eat loads of sushi like there is no tomorrow. I have to say that I enjoy eating with him. I think this made me pay less attention to what I was eating and the fact that he doesn't care about my figure put less pressure on myself to stay fit.

But then my wake up call came when I looked myself in the mirror, and I felt unattractive, almost insecure of what I let myself become. I lost those pounds partly because I wanted to fit in nicer clothes but now that I think of it, those lost pounds stood for more than clothes. Me losing those pounds proved that I have control over myself, my life, who I want to be, and more importantly losing those pounds and staying healthy is the best profession of my love for myself. Some of you might think that I am over reacting but I sacrificed a lot for weight loss, the journey was almost very personal that I find it very insulting that I just threw all that.

I realized that I wanted to get back in track not only for myself and my clothes. I want to be as bright and as happy 10 pounds ago for my new love. I know he does not care of how I am physically, but I know that sooner or later that this insecurity will take out the brightness with in me that I know he fell in love with. So before this happens I have to make some adjustments

For those who are like me, who feel that they got off track, please don't feel that you "failed" in losing weight. The only time you fail is when you stop trying Let me know if you're on the same position as me, let's be friends!