Hi recently lost 100 lbs

Hi my name is Nelly and new to MFP i used to write everything down in a note book and carried it with me everywhere and then in Oct my husband surprised me with an iphone and my world got a whole lot better lol. I am truly addicted to MFP no more books YAHOOOOOO.I started my own website to let others know they are not alone, but also i had never seen or heard of anyone tracking the journey of losing over 100 pounds just with diet and exercise while living a normal working,2 kids,married,struggling life so Ask Nelly was born so this is my story:

Ask Nelly is my way of communicating with everyone about how hard it is to lose weight,be a mom,work,cook and everything in between. My journey started the day i watched my 2 year old son head towards his death and gave up on him. I know it sounds dramatic but in my head it's true. 2008 Oct I came home from getting groceries took a few bags in let out the dog and went to get lukas out of his car seat,i let him out and turned to get my purse and when i looked back he was half way down the driveway.
I started running screaming and yelling for him to stop when my chest tightened,i lost my breathe my knees buckled and I GAVE UP. Yes it's true i watched my son head towards the busy highway we live on and saw his life flash before my eyes. My dog at the time (r.i.p keisha) heard my frantic screams and knocked him down, i picked myself up grabbed lukas cradled him in my arms sobbing and vowed that day to never give up. So i called a trainer named Nicky Davies and she accepted me with open arms, I am not the most agreeable client and i use alot of choice words when she pushes me and i always think "i can't do it". Then i believe I weighed in at 324 pounds 2008 we worked out financial circumstances came up i quit then would go back dec 11 2009 last weight was 278 got down 46 lbs and found out i was pregnant and ended up on bedrest at 9 weeks with a variety of complications. So i had to quit again,I ate,i cried,I came up with a plan, I promised myself 3 months to the day this baby was born i would start again because this was my last baby.
June 11 2010 Nola was born the day she was born i had to be weighed because of c-section and had to have alot of meds so they tried to weigh me and could not get a read off the scale so they wheeled me to what i later found out was the morgue and i weighed in at 369.8 pounds i was mortified.I vowed that day to return to work out like i have never before!! Sept 17 I began working out with Nicky again I did almost everything she told me to do,I for once in my life listened to my body instead of the latest fad in a magazine. I want to weigh 150 pounds is my goal weight so i took that weight x 10 and eat 1500 calories. The weight came off quicker than ever,i eat every 2.5 hours and never after 8pm (except for 10 days in mexico end of march to april gained 11 pounds) as of Thursday Nov 10 2011 I'm sitting at 267.4 down 102.4 pounds was down to 265 but gained some back do to my excuses and not honoring my promise to myself. Here I am today wanting to weigh 250 pounds by Christmas with a total goal of 220 pounds down by Sept 17 2012. What i have realized is weight is soooooo not about excercising endlessly,eating 500 calories a day,it's eating what my body needs and only that. Easier said than done I know this all to well. So right now I'm struggling to lose the last 18 pounds to be down to 250 pounds by Christmas it's hard i have had so many breakdowns.
Losing weight is a total head game and really does a number on you, I now don't turn to food to escape and not deal with things so i am at a point right now where i am trying to figure out how to communicate with everyone in my life verbally when a problem or issue arises. This is so foreign to me all my life i would hear what they said replay it over and over and then eat an entire cake to make myself feel better and then get over it. Well i obviously never "got over it" I ate got huge and gave up. Well no more i want people to know it's hard ,you fail,you succeed, you love yourself again. I vow to you I will lose this weight hopefully by Sept 17 2012 but maybe i will come close or surpass it there are a ton of variables in life and i realize that now. I work out 3 days a week so on those days i will post my weight usually Monday,Wednesday's and Friday's pending holidays ect i will give you Nicky's trainer tips of the week, a healthy recipe each week i will answer your emails nelly@asknelly.ca, and be your support person if you need it.Also check out losing it blog by Kathie lombana Owner of Equilibria Pilates and Juan Lombana Equilibria Fitness. In turn i ask you to hold me accountable, give me feedback,and tell me your story i know i'm not alone. I plan to succeed,know I will fall, but for my husband Conor,Lukas and Nola,most of all myself "I WILL NEVER GIVE UP"
Thank you for taking the time to read my story follow me here on MFP my diary is public and you can also join me on facebook under Ask Nelly good luck everyone i'm rooting for you!!!!
-Nelly:happy: