Haven't weighed myself in over a year

I downloaded MFP on a whim I would have downloaded any calorie tracker as long as it came up in the first result for the search calorie tracker on my phone haha. But actually more than being just some app on my phone it has become a way to strap down and really take responsibility for my weight.

I had stopped weighing myself about a year ago, I was real down on myself about my weight and I've recently had some health problems I found it ironic the Dr weren't weighing me and actually would just ask my weight "250 lbs" I'd throw out there hoping it wasn't more and feeling embarrassed I don't remember what exactly prompted me to weigh myself after such a long time but I hopped on my scale with the promise that I would not judge myself or cry when I read what it said "230 lbs" hmmm... didn't seem as bad when I had stepped on thinking 250.

And for some reason just that thought that I had been thinking I had to loose 70 lbs and finding out it was only 50 seemed like a good note to start on. Besides I wasn't quite as fat as I thought! So rather than beating myself up about my weight every day I try to take myself back to that moment a lot, the relief and think of the relief I will feel when I step on the scale at 180.

I read somewhere about losing 10% of body weight to help your health. That is my first goal 23 pounds. But over all I'd like to see myself at 180 which is my high school weight. I have PCOS so it would really go a long way if I could lose some weight and get my womanly health regular lol. But over all I just want to feel healthy.