I'm Way Too Young to Be Feeling This Old!!

_Natella
_Natella Posts: 6 Member
edited October 2024 in Introduce Yourself
Hello Hello Hello .. My Name is Natel and This is My Story....

After many numerous attempts to lose weight... some half hearted, some no heart at all.. I'm finally going to try and make a serious change.

i'm tired of going out with my friends feeling like i'm just there for the novelty, and that no matter how good I look, somehow they always seem to look better.

It's not that i think i'm ugly or anything, but it somehow just lowers my self confidence, even though i've got so good at covering it that noone ever really notices anyway.

Starting a new job, new relationship and coming so close to what should be the happiest time in my life, I'm completely dreading it. The security of education will be gone by next summer, and whats left? just a short chubby girl, in a big wide world..

My future feels like its gaining up on me and that i have to live every part of my life right now, otherwise by the time I settle down i'll have nothing to show for it. Being unhappy with my weight is the one thing I haven't managed to turn around.

I've been from working in Mcdonald's to a decent paying council job, from being with many player type boys who are after one thing to one good guy who would do anything to make me happy.

So why aren't i happy? because through it all one thing has always plagued me. I always felt like i should be one of the girls that everyone was in awe of, instead of the one that starts with 'Oh she has a nice face.. but her body could do with some work'

And to be honest i'm sick to death of feeling like i have to cover up, i'm 20 for goodness sakes, i should be embracing the fact that i'm still at the age where i can go out in a dress thats long enough to just cover my *kitten*!

But i can't even do that, as the fear that someone will catch a glimpse of my incredibily thick thighs is inhibiting my freedom..

Well Not Anymore! I Will attempt to lose weight for the last time, and i will succeed.. If everyone else can why can't I. Life is to be enjoyed. and let's face it you can't enjoy life if you're always trying to cover your wobbly bits.

(I also created a group for students on how to lose weight on a budget.. have a look :))


""I wake up every day with the realization that this is it, that there's only one shot at this life and I can either enjoy the ride and live it to its fullest and to my highest potential or I can stay the way I am.""

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  • MaraDiaz
    MaraDiaz Posts: 4,603 Member
    You're starting at a great time, young enough to really push yourself without breaking down. You'll get there, and I hope you can stay with it the way I never could, but even if you can't, no one has the right to treat someone badly or disregard them because of their appearance. Not strangers, and certainly not your friends. How dare they?

    I wonder if your success has made some people jealous.
  • melcasa
    melcasa Posts: 60 Member
    I have to say I can identify with nearly everything in your post! It is terrible to feel like you can't fully express yourself or that you just aren't up to par with the people your around.

    Congrats on taking this step forward. What plans are you making to help insure you will lose weight?

    -Melissa
  • _Natella
    _Natella Posts: 6 Member
    Thank you so much! i really appreciate that! .. Sometimes i feel like they are, and as friends you'd think they'd be happy for me, but as nice as they try to be it always feels like there's some underlying tension, and that when i seem unhappy it's like the message they're giving is 'well your life is perfect so why aren't you happy' .
  • BeanyFrog13
    BeanyFrog13 Posts: 161 Member
    Go for it!! We'll be right here beside you cheering you on!! :D
  • KimmyEB
    KimmyEB Posts: 1,208 Member
    How inspiring!! :flowerforyou: I feel the same as you in many aspects...but we're the only ones who can change ourselves! I'll check out your group, as well.
  • _Natella
    _Natella Posts: 6 Member
    @Melcasa it's the worst feeling because when i do it feels like i'm just forging my way and the lack of confidence just shines through. I'm looking to take up some gym classes, I could never stay interested in running much, but I absolutely love to dance! so i think a step class would really keep me engaged! But the main part is just to enjoy cooking good foods, drinking more water, and just trying to enjoy life! thank you so much for your support!


    @pluginbaby Thank You for your support, just makes me feel like i can realy make that change!
  • _Natella
    _Natella Posts: 6 Member
    @KimmyEB We really are, and to embrace the fact that we're here and alive is the first step in it all! thanks for your support! the groups a bit empty right now but i'm working on it! made some great meals on the tiny budget that i have lol! xx
  • rlysrh
    rlysrh Posts: 244 Member
    I know that feeling of going out and feeling like you're not as attractive as your friends. And I always feel like 'why would that guy like ME when my friends are just as nice/funny/intelligent AND skinny too'.

    But yeah. You'll do great on here, good luck! (:
  • patsyanne
    patsyanne Posts: 111 Member
    Now is the time to do it... I have been at it for many years --lose some then go back up --not good for the body and definitely not for the self-esteem. Go for it now girl and gain the beautiful body that you want to match that beautiful face. I am 65 and it is harder to lose now cause the metabolism doesnt work as well BUT since Jan I have lost 35 lbs and am being told by my husband that my butt is looking good---that does alot for my self esteem. A male friend looked at me today and said "How much have you lost?" I know how you feel; I have been overweight since grade school. My nickname was "fatty Patty" so I know how you feel. Do it now for yourself. This website is a big help and the people on here who friend you are great encouragers. Add me if you would like..GOOD LUCK
  • docHelen
    docHelen Posts: 198 Member
    go for it...this is an awesome site and we are all here to help
  • rlysrh
    rlysrh Posts: 244 Member
    Oh also- no matter how much you don't want to take full body photos at this point you'll regret it when you've lost 20lbs and don't have any good full body pics to compare to. (:
  • docHelen
    docHelen Posts: 198 Member
    Oh also- no matter how much you don't want to take full body photos at this point you'll regret it when you've lost 20lbs and don't have any good full body pics to compare to. (:
    that is sooo true. i'm now at my ideal weight and didn't do the measuring bit to start with, but so wish i had cos i know i've lost loads of inches
  • _Natella
    _Natella Posts: 6 Member
    @rlysrh It's hard because you like your friends for who they are, but they annoy you cause they're so skinny too! but thank you for the support its so much appreciated!


    @Patsyanne congratulations on your weightloss!! thats so inspirational and amazing. just makes me feel like it actually can be done, and the end result is completely worth it!

    @dochelen thanks for your support
  • _Natella
    _Natella Posts: 6 Member
    ill get on to that right now! lool x
  • myth4ever
    myth4ever Posts: 372 Member
    you got it! just do it!!!!!!!
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