Fallen to my darkest place yet!

There is no where to fall its made up in our heads as a place where we can be..there is no wagon to fall off of either.....Youve simply been enjoying food a little bit too much and if you dont want to reach 200lbs by weeks end you could always take a brisk walk and have a nice salad for dinner and make a plan for the rest of the weeks to come...making a plan of attack always helps......:drinker: Good luck in your journey

once you can identify the cause you can gradually work on it, if you ever want to chat i am here :flowerforyou:

stress makes me eat too!!! do not give up, get back on track right this minute, you CAN do it, take it one small step, one day at a time . . . . :flowerforyou:

First - take a deep breath. Be calm for a moment. The world has not ended - yet!

O.K. - maybe you need to sit down with paper and pen and review what you want/need and why you want/need it. Diet wise, health wise, life wise. Your post screams to me that you are missing something. Something big. Figure it out - if you don't already know it. You need to process what's going on inside you - like NOW. Take a walk, think, mull over what is churning inside you. What hurts so bad that you are trying to drown it with food and when that isn't working are having suicidal thoughts? Process it honey. Here, on paper, with a friend or family member you trust.

Then when you get a clear grip of the issue, work on solving it or processing it or whatever you need to do. Then, and trust me on this, that 8 lbs, a lot of which IS water weight, won't be so big of a problem! Plus, you'll be back on track and able to tackle the healty eating/exercise thing better.

And, if there really is no issue that is bugging you - get a check up. There may be a hormonal issue.

:flowerforyou:

ditto!

if you have suffered from panic attacks before or depression, you should see dr anyway. these things can take on a life of their own (that is, the chemicals cause changes which can then spiral). and subsequent bouts (untreated) can be deeper and longer. so please, since you're calling out for help, make an appt to see dr.
YOU MATTER

ditto!

if you have suffered from panic attacks before or depression, you should see dr anyway. these things can take on a life of their own (that is, the chemicals cause changes which can then spiral). and subsequent bouts (untreated) can be deeper and longer. so please, since you're calling out for help, make an appt to see dr.
YOU MATTER

I have had panic attacks and depression before.. But I have never had treatment. Depression is very common on both sides of my family. But I do not agree with meds at all! I know with my uncle they messed him up really bad... He was better off with out them. My dad reacted really bad to any meds they tried giving him. I dont think my condition is that bad. I think I just have my ups and downs.. and for some reason am just really down at the moment.

Yeah - it's the "for some reason" that you need to figure out!! Not all meds are bad, but nonetheless, you can probably lick this without them. You do need to figure out the why's though and work them through. And if there is a hormonal imbalance or medical issue, you would benefit greatly from getting that taken care of. We care about you and kind of like having you around!!

I agree: take a breath, and journal your thoughts. But I am also very concerned about the suicidal thoughts. Please make an appointment with your Doc. I do not know how old you are, but if you are either pregnant or perimenapause -- hormons will do what you have described. (I was 5 months pregnant before a home test was positive, and I started "the Change" in my 30's.) This is esepcially true if you have worked thru depression before. Having it in the family makes it more likely that you are clinically depressed. Don't write off meds totally because of how your family members reacted. Remember men react diferently than women, and depending upon when they sought treatment -- many new things have happened in this field. Get some advice from your doctor; they may surprise you and just recommend a therapist.

Hi
If you must eat try and eat from this feel good food list
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_foods_raise_serotonin_levels
when you get low serotonin (the feel good brain chemical) it makes you feel depressed ,the foods on this list make you fell better Hope this helps.Any thoughts of suicide need IMMEDIATE discussion talk to someone close to you about how you are feeling Good Luck

I hope you are doing better today. As you can see some of us are worried about you and we hope that you have made an appointment with your doc.:flowerforyou:

Dear Carrie6o6,

Please seek professional help as soon as possible. Life is worth living. We all care about you.

mfpme

I know that you said that you don't want to be on drugs, and I understand completely where you are coming from because I am the same way, but you might want to consider taking something for them.
I suffer from anxiety attacks, I have for years, and they will come and go. Last year I suffered from the worst one yet, I really was convinced I was having a heart attack and almost went to the hospital. I couldn't take a deep breath, I had numbness in my hands and the most terrific pains in my chest and down my left arm. The next day I made an appointment with my doctor and found that it was a classic anxiety attack. She prescribed Lorazapam (same type of drug as Valium which is Diazapam) as a sedative.
I took a couple for two days and it totally did the trick. One in the mid morning and one before bed for the next two days and I was totally fine. They are not something that you have to take every day, I have only taken one other pill since the original attack when I felt another severe attack coming on, they can be used only when you absolutely need them.
Sedatives aren't going to be appropriate for every case of anxiety, it will be dependant on the type of attack that you suffer from. Also any narcotic, including sedatives, aren't for everyone as they are drugs that you will very easily become dependant on, and you will build up a resistance to them very quickly if they are taken on a frequent basis. Everyone knows what a classic abuse drug that Valium has become and that is why I have always been against them and have not taken them before. But, if you take them infrequently they can really be very beneficial. I haven't used them for almost six months now, but I am glad that I have them around in case I have another attack like the one last year.

I agree with Vanessa, I suffered from panic disorder years ago and was prescribed anti depressants and a few valium for emergencies. The valium worked well for me but the other meds not so much. There are plenty of different options available, if you continue to suffer serious symtoms do yourself a favor and see your doctor let them know your feeling about meds, they will work with you on something that works for you personally. There is help available if you need it. good luck:flowerforyou:

Girlfriend... I am just coming off of a 6 month bout with depression and panic attacks. They run in my family as well. Unfortunately I have passed them on to my 11 yr old son. I don't agree with meds at all but do some research on Amino acids. Check them out on vitamindiary.com. I lost 1 1/2 ft of my colon which is where sertiononis made believe it or not. If you are eating crappy food and get caught up in the cycle of cravings..you are getting little boosts of seritonon when you binge. I started taking 5-HTP which is an amino acid that makes Triptofan which in turn makes seritonin I went to a medical doc and as par for the couse he put me on some crazy tranquilers and a anti -convulsive med since I can't take anti=depressants..... I went zombie for a week....then I went to a naturopath.. she turned me onto the 5-HTP and I swear to you I felt the chest pounding and anxiety decrease in less than 1 hour. I haven't had a panic attack since. I was having them daily and they lasted most of the day. I too had suicidal thoughts even though I would never do it either, but I get the dark place you were dwelling.. I am not a religious person but I do belive in prayer and a higher power and I jut asked for help which led me to the naturopath. It is all natural stuff that your body makes that is usually used with a naturopath. I would highly reccomend one. feel free to email me and I would be happy to be a friend through this. I get it first hand. Believe it or not this just happened for me 2 wks ago with the naturopath and I am a changed woman!! Don't go conventional medicine...seek out natural remedies first!