Breakthrough

I've struggled with weight loss since the age of 13. . . never successfully. I've been on MFP for several months, but have only really been "doing it" for about 6 weeks. I've been extremely successful. This past Halloween was the first time in my "solid food" life that I didn't eat any (not ANY) candy. That was a major success for me. But now, as I am about to host a small gathering for Thanksgiving, I have "fallen" off the wagon.

Let me tell you, I have anticipated this holiday with a huge mix of dread and "moxy". (I beat Halloween, "the gateway to holiday eating". I CAN handle these holiday temptations!) But, yesterday I had a day-full of terrible cravings (not at all related to any temptation...just my body wanting to get its' fat back.) All I wanted to do was EAT! ALL DAY LONG. I gave in at about 8:00pm and I ATE. So, this morning, I awoke with the anticipation of the "guilt hangover". But, I realized, that beating myself up for a "slip" day was the worst thing I could do to myself. The emotional "game" I've been playing for years IS OVER! I WILL NOT beat myself up for being human. I will occasionally indulge in over eating. I will enjoy the holiday tomorrow. I am changing my eating habits for life, not dieting. Holidays are OK. Eating is OK. Occasional over eating does not mean I am a failure. It just means I am human. I am not a failure!

Enjoy your holiday!