Sick, tired and ready to change.

mcfrlndsgirl
mcfrlndsgirl Posts: 12
edited September 19 in Introduce Yourself
hi I'm Mallory. I am an Army wife and very proud of my husband. He is so supportive and loves me the way I am but I want to change for him. Seeing him do his PT and working out all the time makes me feel ashamed that I have let myself get so out of shape. I used to play softball but a knee injury ended that a few years ago. Since then depression and frustration over my physical limitations helped me gain over 65 pounds in the last 7 years. I have never been "skinny" by any means but I used to be fit. I miss that. I want to lose weight and strength my knee so that I can play softball again. I miss it so much.

I have tried off and on to lose weight but I have been plagued with fear and doubt and keep believing it is never going to change. This time I have a very good reason and determination to make thing better. My husband is currently serving a hardship tour in S Korea. he has been gone for 6 months and we have 6 more to go. I know I can't lose all the weight that I want to by the time he comes home but I want to be on the road to where I want to be. I want to feel better about myself and be able to go out and by a sexy red dress for his homecoming and actually have to confidence to wear it. I want to be able to work out with him and not feel ashamed. I want to start living my7 life instead of hiding in my house all the time.

I'm hoping this site will give me the support that I can't seem to find in "real" life. I am new to the post we live at and don't have many friends and my friends back home don't always help even though their intentions are good.

I'm so tired of feeling this way and so sick of avoiding mirrors. I want to live my life to the fullest and I am hoping this site will help me do that.

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  • mcfrlndsgirl
    mcfrlndsgirl Posts: 12
    hi I'm Mallory. I am an Army wife and very proud of my husband. He is so supportive and loves me the way I am but I want to change for him. Seeing him do his PT and working out all the time makes me feel ashamed that I have let myself get so out of shape. I used to play softball but a knee injury ended that a few years ago. Since then depression and frustration over my physical limitations helped me gain over 65 pounds in the last 7 years. I have never been "skinny" by any means but I used to be fit. I miss that. I want to lose weight and strength my knee so that I can play softball again. I miss it so much.

    I have tried off and on to lose weight but I have been plagued with fear and doubt and keep believing it is never going to change. This time I have a very good reason and determination to make thing better. My husband is currently serving a hardship tour in S Korea. he has been gone for 6 months and we have 6 more to go. I know I can't lose all the weight that I want to by the time he comes home but I want to be on the road to where I want to be. I want to feel better about myself and be able to go out and by a sexy red dress for his homecoming and actually have to confidence to wear it. I want to be able to work out with him and not feel ashamed. I want to start living my7 life instead of hiding in my house all the time.

    I'm hoping this site will give me the support that I can't seem to find in "real" life. I am new to the post we live at and don't have many friends and my friends back home don't always help even though their intentions are good.

    I'm so tired of feeling this way and so sick of avoiding mirrors. I want to live my life to the fullest and I am hoping this site will help me do that.
  • missyt78
    missyt78 Posts: 62 Member
    Welocm to MFP Mallory:flowerforyou:

    I know how hard this is for you, my husband was also operational for a while, and the thought of him doing all that PT really spurred me on, so much so that i decided to enlist for the reserves myself. I felt it with the structure and support i would become fitter & leaner enabling me to acheive and live life to the full. Durning my Basic training i fell pregnant with my first baby, and unfortunatly i had to drop out, whilst he continued to serve and travel.

    Now after 2 kids and a serious post baby/takeaway/excessive chocolate habbit tummy:blushing: i feel that MFP also provides me with the structure & support i need to reach my weight goals. I know that it will help you too. :smile:
    You just need to set mini goals for yourself, and celebrate each one acheived. :bigsmile: Dont be afraid to acknowledge your slip ups, embrace them and learn from where things went "off track", its only one day out of the rest of your life, this isnt a diet its the first steps to a new healthier, leaner, fitter you, wheather it takes 6months or 6years you will make it!! :flowerforyou:

    Good luck on your journey & take care.

    :bigsmile: :bigsmile:
  • tron3002
    tron3002 Posts: 440 Member
    You can do it!!! Just start walking and watch your calorie intake and dont be so hard on yourself. Make small goals like I'll lose 3 lbs and when you reach that goal treat yourself to something nice... Just dont make your reward food something more along the lines of a movie or something you enjoy.
    Just remember to take one day at a time and if you make a mistake along the way dont beat yourself up just get up and start all over again...
  • in_to_win
    in_to_win Posts: 17
    Hey Hey! My husband is in S. Korea right now (but I'm here with him) and he is army as well. I know what you mean about watching them do PT every morning and that totally motivates me to hit the gym hard. You can do this!
  • MOMOFTWO29
    MOMOFTWO29 Posts: 8,276 Member
    Hello and welcome to MFP. This is the best website ever. I love it here and I think you will too. This website is so helpful, supportive, motivational, and everyone here is so nice and friendly. I just wanted to wish you a lot of success on your weight loss journey. You can do this.:smile::flowerforyou: :smile: :flowerforyou: :smile:
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